For a long time there'd always been a part of me that, when it seems that everything has kinda gone from bad to worse and then some, cries in a corner of my mind one little sentence that just about sums it up:
I give up.
I know, it shouldn't be like me of this but, there are tears that I want to cry but can't. There are words that I have to say but can't. There are trials and tribulations that I want to overcome, but can't. All because life is sometimes just too much to bear. And while I know that God won't leave or forsake me, there are times when I just want to scream "Hey God--ARE YOU OUT THERE!?" at the top of my lungs... but I can't.
Because life and society doesn't really give a damn. And it hurts.
It hurts at the end of the day when, after trying to tell myself time and again that things are going to be alright, the day itself just crashes and burns. It hurts when the day commits suicide around me and all I can do is stand in the middle of its ruins, defenseless. Helpless. A minor yet major failure.
It hurts when I need to cry, but I can't. And then it harbors itself inside me until, finally, something to set me off. All hell breaks loose. And I explode. And to see me cry... it breaks the Store Manager's heart when I cry at work. But what all could he have done to prevent the pain from taking over? Nothing--because sometimes he adds on to the tears. So yes, it should break his heart when mine's already shattered. When all the day's hopes have died and there isn't anything I or anyone can do about it.
Throughout these past couple of weeks I was going to try to attempt 21 codename posts, one each day leading up to this Friday. And simply put, work has worn me out. And it's been horrendous. It's been pointless. My attempt on trying to find the good things about me became a failure when all I can see are the mishaps, the lost hopes, the tears. The failures. This has not been a good year being 24. And it's only going to get harder, it's only going to get worse, before anything gets better.
I am truly not looking forward to celebrating my Quarter-Century anymore. My heart's just not in it. There isn't anything worth celebrating anymore. All of a sudden I am shoved into the fear of the fact that, yes, I was an accident. [Long story about the implications but that's basically what happened between the parents. *shrug* What?] That yes, perhaps I wasn't meant to exist. That yes, maybe I was meant to be a failure in the end.
The truth to it is, in God's eyes I am no accident, I am meant to exist, I am no failure. But... it's hard to keep my eyes on the truth when they're blurred with helpless tears.
Because it's hard to face the world when you're a poor, working-class drive-thru girl trying to make ends meet, living paycheck to paycheck and thanking God that at least you can make the rent and the cell phone and try not to starve.
Because it's hard to face the world when you've got no mode of transport other than walking, as gas prices are pointless, and you can only make enough to survive but can't afford a transport--except for $1.25 on the Votran Route 60 to the mall in Daytona and $1.25 back to DeLand, and that's IF you can afford to go to the mall to treat yourself!
Because it's hard to face the world when you've grown up most of your life being teased, called names, emotionally abused to the point where you think that no one really loves you, that no one really believes in you. When you're called names and made the punchline of jokes in school. When you're the outcast most of your life in a town that has no tolerance for outcasts. When the damage is done that, two years in a new town you still don't feel like you belong, and almost commit suicide if not for your best friend who'll always be there somehow.
Because it's hard to face the world when the world, and society, stereotypes you just because of how you look, what you believe. When the world is trying to convince you that you need to be a certain way of this person or that person, that you need to look or act a certain way in order to belong. When the world thinks you need to fit the stereotype they cast you in, and hates you when you step out of line. When the world discriminates you because of who you are, how you act, whether your hair is dark brown or deep blue, what you wear. When you're defenseless as the world accuses you of what they think is wrong that you've done.
This past quarter-century I'd seen and heard enough to feel the pain, to numb the nerves, to break the heart, to cry the tears. I've had the honor of being in the aftermath of many a death among my family and friends, I've had the pain of saying good-bye to too many friends. I looked suicide in the eyes at the age of 21 and survived when I didn't think I'd make the Quarter-Century. But now I've near-reached that unlikely threshold, and this one question remains, after all this time--
dear God, what have I become?
I never wanted to be in this state of despair just days before my birthday. But it's the end of September, October starts tomorrow, and with that begins the next three days that promise to be miserable the way things have been these last handful of days. Part of me feels like I'm still struggling, still trying to stay strong, still holding on. Most of me feels like it's all been a failure. And I wish I didn't feel like that most of me. But it's hard to when all I feel is hopeless about these next few days, and when I'm entirely helpless in trying to do something, anything about it.
Originally I was going to post a few songs but, today I'm in a very numb state. Not really in the best of moods. And I still need to cry some tears before anything runs from bad to worse. Something's got to give. So for this post I'm only going to post one song--perhaps the only proper song to sum up how I've been feeling lately.
"Hurt" - Johnny Cash
I don't have much else to say other than, in the immortal words of Ira Girshwin,
Life's a bore--the world is my oyster no more!
~ me, codename HELPLESS
30 September 2008
26 September 2008
codename ~ CHAOTIC
This week was alright... up until yesterday afternoon, when basically all hell kinda broke loose, so your music post will be up... NOW.
The Starian Union Radio Random 20 for yesterday, Thursday 25 September 2008
Theme ~ Indie Intelligence [Through the Years]
1] "Finish Line" - Michael [2002]
2] "Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash [1979]
3] "Hang Me Up To Dry" - Cold War Kids [2007]
4] "Radiation Vibe" - Fountains of Wayne [1996]
5] "Fans" - Kings of Leon [2007]
6] "Shut Up And Let Me Go" - The Ting Tings [2008]
7] "Mayor Of Simpleton" - XTC [1989]
8] "Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez [2007]
9] "Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis + Watson Twins [2006]
10] "Your Woman" - White Town [1997]
11] "Young Folks" - Peter Bjorn + John [2006]
12] "Don't You Evah" - Spoon [2007]
13] "I Feel It All" [Britt from Spoon Remix] - Feist [2007]
14] "Monster Hospital" - Metric [2005]
15] "Like Eating Glass" - Bloc Party [2005]
16] "A-Punk" - Vampire Weekend [2008]
17] "Australia" [Peter Bjorn + John Remix] - The Shins [2007]
18] "No One's Gonna Love You" - Band of Horses [2007]
19] "Procession" - New Order [1981]
20] "Simple Economics" - Pedro The Lion [2000]
Song of the Day ~ I'd been searching like mad for literally MONTHS for this song. I'd only heard it, er, twice? All I remembered was the "When you're nothing but a boyfriend" line from the chorus. Found it today and I'm so freckin' thrilled! So much so that, it's become my Song of the Day!
"Simple Economics" - Pedro the Lion
Song of the Week ~ From the compilation The Emo Diaries - Chapter Nine: Sad Songs Remind Me [which I'd found earlier this week and am listening to like mad all over again], the one song I'd heard on the radio a couple of years ago. Literally. It stuck in my head since. And I just rediscovered this gem--not only is it on the Indie Intelligence StarMix for the Random 20, it's also my Song of the Week.
"Finish Line" - Michael
Album of the Week ~ Another gem from the great indie compilation is the 8th track, which I'm utilising as the spotlight on the Album of the Week, which is the aforementioned Emo Diaries 9. A great tune to bop my head along to.
"When The Light Becomes Green" - Settlefish
Remix of the Week ~ Another rediscovery is this tune I heard this morning, which I actually hadn't heard in a while. The original, found on the album The Reminder, has been a favorite of mine for a while. Feist does an amazing job with the brilliant acoustic guitar of hers, and the album has her playing the piano too, I think! But there's something about a remix that makes me drift along and hum along and, this does that for me. Britt from Spoon did some proper remixing, and considering I haven't heard it in weeks it sounds pretty new to me. And I love it! It's the Remix of the Week.
"I Feel It All" [Britt from Spoon Remix] - Feist
I know I've mentioned Jose Gonzalez before but I am in love with the album In Our Nature which features the song I'd first heard of him by.
"Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez
I remember I first saw the video for this song. I got the nerves scared stupid out of me. I prefer the song!!
"Monster Hospital" - Metric
And finally, for some old-school--NO I'm not posting the Clash this time!!--the song I chose is a long-time favorite of mine. This was when the band was still trying to figure out just what the heck they were doing with their music. The year at the time was 1981, a year after their former lead singer Ian Curtis committed suicide. This track is, in my opinion, one of their finest moments in their musical career.
"Procession" - New Order
Meanwhile, this week was nothing short of chaotic. National People Week at work. Dubbed McDonald's Crew Appreciation Week, which is basically what it is. Many pictures were taken, which, when I get more energy and time, I will gladly post on here. But yesterday was just too damn trying, and today wasn't really any better. Store Manager Joel knows I'm worse for wear right now, and probably thankful I'm off for the weekend. Except, all I know is that, next week's schedule isn't posted yet, and I'm basically in on Monday A.M. according to Joel. Which means that chances are I'll be off next Saturday, for my Quarter-Century. Which that itself means, I'll be absofreckin'lutely BORED.
Parents will be busy with kid siblings' games.
Friends and coworkers busy with work and/or out of town.
Boyfriend at a convention.
Best friend still in DC.
Hometown best friends at work.
And basically, that means I'll be celebrating both before AND after, but not on the day of. And that's really, REALLY going to suck.
I think I shall make myself a copy of this StarMix for the day for myself, an early Birthday present if you will, which I'll gladly listen to on my Birthday. All by my Goddarn lonesome.
*sigh* What a way to celebrate the great 2-5.
~ me, codename CHAOTIC
The Starian Union Radio Random 20 for yesterday, Thursday 25 September 2008
Theme ~ Indie Intelligence [Through the Years]
1] "Finish Line" - Michael [2002]
2] "Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash [1979]
3] "Hang Me Up To Dry" - Cold War Kids [2007]
4] "Radiation Vibe" - Fountains of Wayne [1996]
5] "Fans" - Kings of Leon [2007]
6] "Shut Up And Let Me Go" - The Ting Tings [2008]
7] "Mayor Of Simpleton" - XTC [1989]
8] "Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez [2007]
9] "Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis + Watson Twins [2006]
10] "Your Woman" - White Town [1997]
11] "Young Folks" - Peter Bjorn + John [2006]
12] "Don't You Evah" - Spoon [2007]
13] "I Feel It All" [Britt from Spoon Remix] - Feist [2007]
14] "Monster Hospital" - Metric [2005]
15] "Like Eating Glass" - Bloc Party [2005]
16] "A-Punk" - Vampire Weekend [2008]
17] "Australia" [Peter Bjorn + John Remix] - The Shins [2007]
18] "No One's Gonna Love You" - Band of Horses [2007]
19] "Procession" - New Order [1981]
20] "Simple Economics" - Pedro The Lion [2000]
Song of the Day ~ I'd been searching like mad for literally MONTHS for this song. I'd only heard it, er, twice? All I remembered was the "When you're nothing but a boyfriend" line from the chorus. Found it today and I'm so freckin' thrilled! So much so that, it's become my Song of the Day!
"Simple Economics" - Pedro the Lion
Song of the Week ~ From the compilation The Emo Diaries - Chapter Nine: Sad Songs Remind Me [which I'd found earlier this week and am listening to like mad all over again], the one song I'd heard on the radio a couple of years ago. Literally. It stuck in my head since. And I just rediscovered this gem--not only is it on the Indie Intelligence StarMix for the Random 20, it's also my Song of the Week.
"Finish Line" - Michael
Album of the Week ~ Another gem from the great indie compilation is the 8th track, which I'm utilising as the spotlight on the Album of the Week, which is the aforementioned Emo Diaries 9. A great tune to bop my head along to.
"When The Light Becomes Green" - Settlefish
Remix of the Week ~ Another rediscovery is this tune I heard this morning, which I actually hadn't heard in a while. The original, found on the album The Reminder, has been a favorite of mine for a while. Feist does an amazing job with the brilliant acoustic guitar of hers, and the album has her playing the piano too, I think! But there's something about a remix that makes me drift along and hum along and, this does that for me. Britt from Spoon did some proper remixing, and considering I haven't heard it in weeks it sounds pretty new to me. And I love it! It's the Remix of the Week.
"I Feel It All" [Britt from Spoon Remix] - Feist
I know I've mentioned Jose Gonzalez before but I am in love with the album In Our Nature which features the song I'd first heard of him by.
"Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez
I remember I first saw the video for this song. I got the nerves scared stupid out of me. I prefer the song!!
"Monster Hospital" - Metric
And finally, for some old-school--NO I'm not posting the Clash this time!!--the song I chose is a long-time favorite of mine. This was when the band was still trying to figure out just what the heck they were doing with their music. The year at the time was 1981, a year after their former lead singer Ian Curtis committed suicide. This track is, in my opinion, one of their finest moments in their musical career.
"Procession" - New Order
Meanwhile, this week was nothing short of chaotic. National People Week at work. Dubbed McDonald's Crew Appreciation Week, which is basically what it is. Many pictures were taken, which, when I get more energy and time, I will gladly post on here. But yesterday was just too damn trying, and today wasn't really any better. Store Manager Joel knows I'm worse for wear right now, and probably thankful I'm off for the weekend. Except, all I know is that, next week's schedule isn't posted yet, and I'm basically in on Monday A.M. according to Joel. Which means that chances are I'll be off next Saturday, for my Quarter-Century. Which that itself means, I'll be absofreckin'lutely BORED.
Parents will be busy with kid siblings' games.
Friends and coworkers busy with work and/or out of town.
Boyfriend at a convention.
Best friend still in DC.
Hometown best friends at work.
And basically, that means I'll be celebrating both before AND after, but not on the day of. And that's really, REALLY going to suck.
I think I shall make myself a copy of this StarMix for the day for myself, an early Birthday present if you will, which I'll gladly listen to on my Birthday. All by my Goddarn lonesome.
*sigh* What a way to celebrate the great 2-5.
~ me, codename CHAOTIC
22 September 2008
codename ~ BELOVED
To be honest, I was going to wait another week or so before this particular post, but as of lately, let's be honest here:
my heart hasn't felt this sound in nearly ages.
I'm slowly approaching the quarter-century [less than two weeks to go!] and, for all I care, I can't get the words out right. Not when I realize that, there's been someone there for me all this time--11 months and 3 days since he and I met to be exact!! And that, all the while that I'd faced the likes of Cupid being rather stupid... that chances are that we never really stopped thinking about each other...
...isn't that right, Roboter?
So yes, I've had my share of tears--I'd been a girlfriend and all the while been dumped. Time and time again. In the end of things I ended up the friend. And of all my ex-boyfriends, only two are among my best friends in the entire universe--
~ Pouncer [yes, my best buddy, we dated, got serious, broke up... and realised that we were better as the best of friends after all, and still are to this day!]
~ Hikari [who every once in a while takes me out to lunch so we can catch up on life's drama in our respective corners of the world].
And in the midst of my tears I kept thinking, hoping that there was someone out in this world for me. And I realised some weeks ago that, there really is someone out there for me.
1,200 miles out there for me, to be exact!
For those of you who cheered, It's Roboter, Captain!!, give yourself a cookie and tell 'em I said it was okay. Hell, have two! Or gosh! why not just share the whole damn cookie jar!? I'm in love! I'M IN LOVE FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!
Because, no one else I know of could ever make me feel like life's worth holding on when the worst of it brings me to tears, when death crosses my path again and again. When work is unbearable on either end and all we can do is lift each other up somehow. When life's dilemmas cause headaches enough for the both of us.
Sunday 19 October will be the 1-year anniversary since--thank you Facebook!!--Roboter and I became friends. Over, of course, this group right here...
"Nummern/Computerwelt 2" - Kraftwerk
And between talking Ralf und Florian, Trans-Europa and the recent touring drama [*sigh* STILL no Florian...], after 11 months it's safe to say that, with constant communication a long-distance relationship CAN flourish!! And between the both of us, it's blossoming quite nicely.
Because after Siren broke up with me, mainly over the pointlessness of putting up with long distance [he was in Iowa when that happened... in June... uh-huh], I once thought we could've worked things out when he returned; that never happened because of the implications [full-time student + full-time worker + long-distance between deland and merritt island *WHICH ISN'T EVEN MUCH!!* = next-to-no time for me = siren ~ that's my equation and i'm sticking to it!]. And yet now he's with someone new. But you know... he doesn't matter to me anymore. Not when I realise that, I've proven him wrong over long-distance relationships. And I'm even happier NOW than when I was dating him!! When Siren broke up with me, Roboter was the first to know, and all the while as things were going from bad to worse, he [Roboter] was there for me through the better and not-so-great of times. And we're still holding each other's hand somehow through all of this.
Siren, if you only knew just how much I learned from you so much--that I probably didn't mean as much to you as I thought I meant. That you'd unexpectedly, unnecessarily disregard me as your internship progressed. That you'd break up with me when I didn't need to go through that untimely mess. That you'd ultimately break my heart, over a stupid triviality. Well... yes, you moved on. And thank the Lord above, so have I. And happily, because you made me not give up over someone who, I've realised, has been on my side all along, more than you'll ever be for me. He and I have made the effort--more than you'd expect. Just thought I'd send you a little anti-love song your way...
"Forget I Ever Knew You" - Clay Aiken
*WHEW!!* Alright, that done, trying to type and talk with my sweetheart is no easy matter right now but, considering it was crazy enough we were on the phone for, er, 8 hours and 15 minutes NONSTOP yesterday... yeah. We had quite a conversation over an assortment of topics, as usual. But it lasted from the time I got home from Church to the time I went to bed at around 10. And it was all the more fun; there seems to be more to talk about now than back in December, though back then we had developed some sort of crush on each other. But now we've intergrated each other into each other's little respective corners of the world, between taking pics of our workstations to texting in the middle of work out of the blue to--my favorite--sharing pictures of our neighborhoods.
I kinda told him last night that, the day we finally meet [and we're praying that God willing it's SOON!!] things are going to be off the wall!! And the way we go about our lives, the way we are with each other, to me it's as if almost anything is possible. 1,200 miles may separate us but, love is the shortest distance between both our hearts. And between us our hearts are as close as it's gonna get!
So yes, I think it is time to say with honest conviction that, I love Roboter and I cannot lie!! Yes, I know, I'm crazy, but so is he and it takes one crazy soul to know one. If only you heard what craziness of the humorous sort occurs in any conversation we have...!
I think this calls for a StarMix for the two of us, which the rest of you Underground Citizens can sing along to and join in the cheer. What say y'all, fancy a sing-along? Or even better, fancy a jelly baby?
Thursdays Roboter goes about his post-work time taking on grocery shopping. I usually listen to this tune on his behalf. I think he likes the song...?
"Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash
And because he absofreckin'lutely LOVES THIS SONG!!
"Satisfaction" - Benny Benassi
From our good friend Louise, whom I need to find a proper codename for, by the way; I'm sure we'll probably listen to this on our first date. *sigh*
"Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
We've had our share of mishaps and ill-temperament at work, we had our minor quarter-life crises, and we're still hangin' on in there for dear life. I'm sending this one out to him 'cause, even though this may be an alt-country cover of a really good song, the lyrics still mean enough.
"Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins
...oh and, hey Roboter! Everyone! how 'bout a sing-along??
"I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
Besides this being my Song of the Week, this is by far my favorite love song. No, seriously. And we all thought being weird was enough on my end. But hell, I've got my own standards for love songs!!
"Mayor Of Simpleton" - XTC
And speaking of, to close out this playlist, more Kraftwerk! Hey, it was what we had in common in the first place, so why not?
"Computer Love" - Kraftwerk
I can say without thinking twice that, long distance be damned, I'm in love, and I'm loved, and I know it...
AND I FRECKIN' LOVE IT!!
~ me, codename BELOVED
my heart hasn't felt this sound in nearly ages.
I'm slowly approaching the quarter-century [less than two weeks to go!] and, for all I care, I can't get the words out right. Not when I realize that, there's been someone there for me all this time--11 months and 3 days since he and I met to be exact!! And that, all the while that I'd faced the likes of Cupid being rather stupid... that chances are that we never really stopped thinking about each other...
...isn't that right, Roboter?
So yes, I've had my share of tears--I'd been a girlfriend and all the while been dumped. Time and time again. In the end of things I ended up the friend. And of all my ex-boyfriends, only two are among my best friends in the entire universe--
~ Pouncer [yes, my best buddy, we dated, got serious, broke up... and realised that we were better as the best of friends after all, and still are to this day!]
~ Hikari [who every once in a while takes me out to lunch so we can catch up on life's drama in our respective corners of the world].
And in the midst of my tears I kept thinking, hoping that there was someone out in this world for me. And I realised some weeks ago that, there really is someone out there for me.
1,200 miles out there for me, to be exact!
For those of you who cheered, It's Roboter, Captain!!, give yourself a cookie and tell 'em I said it was okay. Hell, have two! Or gosh! why not just share the whole damn cookie jar!? I'm in love! I'M IN LOVE FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!
Because, no one else I know of could ever make me feel like life's worth holding on when the worst of it brings me to tears, when death crosses my path again and again. When work is unbearable on either end and all we can do is lift each other up somehow. When life's dilemmas cause headaches enough for the both of us.
Sunday 19 October will be the 1-year anniversary since--thank you Facebook!!--Roboter and I became friends. Over, of course, this group right here...
"Nummern/Computerwelt 2" - Kraftwerk
And between talking Ralf und Florian, Trans-Europa and the recent touring drama [*sigh* STILL no Florian...], after 11 months it's safe to say that, with constant communication a long-distance relationship CAN flourish!! And between the both of us, it's blossoming quite nicely.
Because after Siren broke up with me, mainly over the pointlessness of putting up with long distance [he was in Iowa when that happened... in June... uh-huh], I once thought we could've worked things out when he returned; that never happened because of the implications [full-time student + full-time worker + long-distance between deland and merritt island *WHICH ISN'T EVEN MUCH!!* = next-to-no time for me = siren ~ that's my equation and i'm sticking to it!]. And yet now he's with someone new. But you know... he doesn't matter to me anymore. Not when I realise that, I've proven him wrong over long-distance relationships. And I'm even happier NOW than when I was dating him!! When Siren broke up with me, Roboter was the first to know, and all the while as things were going from bad to worse, he [Roboter] was there for me through the better and not-so-great of times. And we're still holding each other's hand somehow through all of this.
Siren, if you only knew just how much I learned from you so much--that I probably didn't mean as much to you as I thought I meant. That you'd unexpectedly, unnecessarily disregard me as your internship progressed. That you'd break up with me when I didn't need to go through that untimely mess. That you'd ultimately break my heart, over a stupid triviality. Well... yes, you moved on. And thank the Lord above, so have I. And happily, because you made me not give up over someone who, I've realised, has been on my side all along, more than you'll ever be for me. He and I have made the effort--more than you'd expect. Just thought I'd send you a little anti-love song your way...
"Forget I Ever Knew You" - Clay Aiken
*WHEW!!* Alright, that done, trying to type and talk with my sweetheart is no easy matter right now but, considering it was crazy enough we were on the phone for, er, 8 hours and 15 minutes NONSTOP yesterday... yeah. We had quite a conversation over an assortment of topics, as usual. But it lasted from the time I got home from Church to the time I went to bed at around 10. And it was all the more fun; there seems to be more to talk about now than back in December, though back then we had developed some sort of crush on each other. But now we've intergrated each other into each other's little respective corners of the world, between taking pics of our workstations to texting in the middle of work out of the blue to--my favorite--sharing pictures of our neighborhoods.
I kinda told him last night that, the day we finally meet [and we're praying that God willing it's SOON!!] things are going to be off the wall!! And the way we go about our lives, the way we are with each other, to me it's as if almost anything is possible. 1,200 miles may separate us but, love is the shortest distance between both our hearts. And between us our hearts are as close as it's gonna get!
So yes, I think it is time to say with honest conviction that, I love Roboter and I cannot lie!! Yes, I know, I'm crazy, but so is he and it takes one crazy soul to know one. If only you heard what craziness of the humorous sort occurs in any conversation we have...!
I think this calls for a StarMix for the two of us, which the rest of you Underground Citizens can sing along to and join in the cheer. What say y'all, fancy a sing-along? Or even better, fancy a jelly baby?
Thursdays Roboter goes about his post-work time taking on grocery shopping. I usually listen to this tune on his behalf. I think he likes the song...?
"Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash
And because he absofreckin'lutely LOVES THIS SONG!!
"Satisfaction" - Benny Benassi
From our good friend Louise, whom I need to find a proper codename for, by the way; I'm sure we'll probably listen to this on our first date. *sigh*
"Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
We've had our share of mishaps and ill-temperament at work, we had our minor quarter-life crises, and we're still hangin' on in there for dear life. I'm sending this one out to him 'cause, even though this may be an alt-country cover of a really good song, the lyrics still mean enough.
"Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins
...oh and, hey Roboter! Everyone! how 'bout a sing-along??
"I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
Besides this being my Song of the Week, this is by far my favorite love song. No, seriously. And we all thought being weird was enough on my end. But hell, I've got my own standards for love songs!!
"Mayor Of Simpleton" - XTC
And speaking of, to close out this playlist, more Kraftwerk! Hey, it was what we had in common in the first place, so why not?
"Computer Love" - Kraftwerk
I can say without thinking twice that, long distance be damned, I'm in love, and I'm loved, and I know it...
AND I FRECKIN' LOVE IT!!
~ me, codename BELOVED
19 September 2008
codename ~ DEATHFLIGHT
I'm scared of death.
I think I may have said this once or twice.
Seriously. I'm scared of death, I'm afraid to die. Even though I'm a strong believer in heaven, the fear... it's there. I can't fully tolerate the concept of death. It's too... I don't know... it just sickens me sometimes. Maybe a bit too much sometimes. And it's struck again.
This morning word was received in the workplace that Juan's father passed away from cancer. Juan is 17, still in high school, and works in the night shift. And in my opinion he's much too young to lose his father through such an illness.
*sigh* It kinda dampens an otherwise decent day. The fear of death is amplified whenever it strikes close to home. And my heart breaks because of the pain that the person who's lost someone feels, the tears they have to cry having lost someone they can't replace.
I haven't had a time or chance to let out a good cry yet, as I've been trying to cheer myself up working on Doctor Who LOL-style pictures. But the pain is strong enough that, before tonight's over, there will be tears.
...I don't think I really want to go out tonight. Not in the state I'm in today.
I think this calls for *some* Coldplay. Yes, Coldplay. Because there are some songs that should dry my tears when I'm just one helluva glum mess. Like this one. Just the title's calm for the calamity. But the chorus sings the truth.
"Don't Panic" - Coldplay
I can't really describe this song, but the lyrics sure help with the kind of day I've been having. I'm cranking this up a good couple of notches.
"Fix You" - Coldplay
I know this one's a love song but, with lyrics like these, it's almost as if to seem like the sea is death, in this case.
And I could write a song, A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong, And you belong with me
The streets you're walking on A thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong, And you belong with me
Oh what good is it to live With nothing left to give,
Forget but not forgive, Not loving all you see?
Oh the streets you're walking on A thousand houses long
Well that's where I belong And you belong with me...
Not swallowed in the sea
"Swallowed In The Sea" - Coldplay
Back to the start? Please, back to the days before death came and stole you away...
"The Scientist" - Coldplay
And finally, for Juan, if he ever reads this--I think your father's singing this right now; it's a short song but, I think it's probably saying so much right now... for all of us, and to those who in the past near-6 months who've lost someone dear...
"Death Will Never Conquer" - Coldplay *Song of the Day*
On that note, I think that'll do for today... for now.
~ me, codename DEATHFLIGHT
I think I may have said this once or twice.
Seriously. I'm scared of death, I'm afraid to die. Even though I'm a strong believer in heaven, the fear... it's there. I can't fully tolerate the concept of death. It's too... I don't know... it just sickens me sometimes. Maybe a bit too much sometimes. And it's struck again.
This morning word was received in the workplace that Juan's father passed away from cancer. Juan is 17, still in high school, and works in the night shift. And in my opinion he's much too young to lose his father through such an illness.
*sigh* It kinda dampens an otherwise decent day. The fear of death is amplified whenever it strikes close to home. And my heart breaks because of the pain that the person who's lost someone feels, the tears they have to cry having lost someone they can't replace.
I haven't had a time or chance to let out a good cry yet, as I've been trying to cheer myself up working on Doctor Who LOL-style pictures. But the pain is strong enough that, before tonight's over, there will be tears.
...I don't think I really want to go out tonight. Not in the state I'm in today.
I think this calls for *some* Coldplay. Yes, Coldplay. Because there are some songs that should dry my tears when I'm just one helluva glum mess. Like this one. Just the title's calm for the calamity. But the chorus sings the truth.
"Don't Panic" - Coldplay
I can't really describe this song, but the lyrics sure help with the kind of day I've been having. I'm cranking this up a good couple of notches.
"Fix You" - Coldplay
I know this one's a love song but, with lyrics like these, it's almost as if to seem like the sea is death, in this case.
And I could write a song, A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong, And you belong with me
The streets you're walking on A thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong, And you belong with me
Oh what good is it to live With nothing left to give,
Forget but not forgive, Not loving all you see?
Oh the streets you're walking on A thousand houses long
Well that's where I belong And you belong with me...
Not swallowed in the sea
"Swallowed In The Sea" - Coldplay
Back to the start? Please, back to the days before death came and stole you away...
"The Scientist" - Coldplay
And finally, for Juan, if he ever reads this--I think your father's singing this right now; it's a short song but, I think it's probably saying so much right now... for all of us, and to those who in the past near-6 months who've lost someone dear...
"Death Will Never Conquer" - Coldplay *Song of the Day*
On that note, I think that'll do for today... for now.
~ me, codename DEATHFLIGHT
18 September 2008
codename ~ MUSICHOLIC
I'll be the first to admit, I'm wildly addicted to music.
Oh and, I forgot to mention in the TIMEPUNK post below that, Tom Baker is my favorite of the 10 Doctors. He's charming, nutty, hysterical, and--COME ON! he wears one wicked long scarf!! He's just... the perfect Doctor for me!
Photographic evidence, anyone? ~
Anywho, it's time for the new Thursday Tradition!!
Starian Union Radio Random 20 for Thursday 18 September 2008
1] "Big In Japan" - Alphaville
2] "Boy" - Book of Love
3] "The Water" - Feist
4] "Is It Really So Strange" - The Smiths
5] "Where Are You Going?" - Dave Matthews Band
6] Theme to Doctor Who - Delia Derbyshire
7] "When The Stars Go Blue" - Ryan Adams
8] "Sister" - The Nixons
9] "Just Fine" - Mary J. Blige
10] "Tour de France ~ Etape 2" [live] - Kraftwerk
11] "A Day In The Life" - The Beatles
12] "Numbness" - The Verve
13] "Pop Musik" - M
14] "All Night Long" - Peter Murphy
15] "Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me" - U2
16] "Leave Me Alone" - New Order
17] "In The Meantime" - Spacehog
18] "My Immortal" - Evanescence
19] "Rusholme Ruffians" - The Smiths
20] "Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez
Speaking of Jose Gonzalez, another good track from him. From the title of the same name,
"In Our Nature" - Jose Gonzalez
My Song of the Week... well, damn! I forgot! And that only goes to show just how busy I've been this week. So I'm going to pick a song at random and, we'll let that at that...! And, picked at random, this Week's Tunage is...
"Shock the Monkey" - Peter Gabriel
Some Pink Floyd. Actually, out of all their songs, this is my favorite, second only--and ONLY--to "Take It Back" from The Division Bell.
"Young Lust" - Pink Floyd
From the Indie Intelligence files, a favorite song of mine from Southern-rock group Kings of Leon. Now I'm not a big fan of KoL, but I really love this song.
"Fans" - Kings of Leon
And, for some old-school Police, 'cause old-school Police is awesome...
"Synchronicity II" - The Police
And finally, because, sadly, there is someone in my life I wish was here with me right now. 1,200 miles isn't too far from each other, from someday. And someday will be here soon, I know it. He and I, we have our hopes for it. I can almost touch it...
"Wish You Were Here" - Pink Floyd
And there you have it! Another wonderful Thursday Music blogpost here in the Underground. Keeping within the codename series too. I still have two more [tormorrow], and I should be caught up if I go at it every day. *sigh* And now, I think some lunch is in order, as I've been at it with this blog for about 4 hours or so between both of today's blogposts...
Until the next round...
~ me, codename MUSICHOLIC
Oh and, I forgot to mention in the TIMEPUNK post below that, Tom Baker is my favorite of the 10 Doctors. He's charming, nutty, hysterical, and--COME ON! he wears one wicked long scarf!! He's just... the perfect Doctor for me!
Photographic evidence, anyone? ~
Anywho, it's time for the new Thursday Tradition!!
Starian Union Radio Random 20 for Thursday 18 September 2008
1] "Big In Japan" - Alphaville
2] "Boy" - Book of Love
3] "The Water" - Feist
4] "Is It Really So Strange" - The Smiths
5] "Where Are You Going?" - Dave Matthews Band
6] Theme to Doctor Who - Delia Derbyshire
7] "When The Stars Go Blue" - Ryan Adams
8] "Sister" - The Nixons
9] "Just Fine" - Mary J. Blige
10] "Tour de France ~ Etape 2" [live] - Kraftwerk
11] "A Day In The Life" - The Beatles
12] "Numbness" - The Verve
13] "Pop Musik" - M
14] "All Night Long" - Peter Murphy
15] "Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me" - U2
16] "Leave Me Alone" - New Order
17] "In The Meantime" - Spacehog
18] "My Immortal" - Evanescence
19] "Rusholme Ruffians" - The Smiths
20] "Down The Line" - Jose Gonzalez
Speaking of Jose Gonzalez, another good track from him. From the title of the same name,
"In Our Nature" - Jose Gonzalez
My Song of the Week... well, damn! I forgot! And that only goes to show just how busy I've been this week. So I'm going to pick a song at random and, we'll let that at that...! And, picked at random, this Week's Tunage is...
"Shock the Monkey" - Peter Gabriel
Some Pink Floyd. Actually, out of all their songs, this is my favorite, second only--and ONLY--to "Take It Back" from The Division Bell.
"Young Lust" - Pink Floyd
From the Indie Intelligence files, a favorite song of mine from Southern-rock group Kings of Leon. Now I'm not a big fan of KoL, but I really love this song.
"Fans" - Kings of Leon
And, for some old-school Police, 'cause old-school Police is awesome...
"Synchronicity II" - The Police
And finally, because, sadly, there is someone in my life I wish was here with me right now. 1,200 miles isn't too far from each other, from someday. And someday will be here soon, I know it. He and I, we have our hopes for it. I can almost touch it...
"Wish You Were Here" - Pink Floyd
And there you have it! Another wonderful Thursday Music blogpost here in the Underground. Keeping within the codename series too. I still have two more [tormorrow], and I should be caught up if I go at it every day. *sigh* And now, I think some lunch is in order, as I've been at it with this blog for about 4 hours or so between both of today's blogposts...
Until the next round...
~ me, codename MUSICHOLIC
codename ~ TIMEPUNK
One of my favorite shows is Doctor Who. Duh. Everyone kinda knows that bit. Especially Roboter, and those who know who my two favorite Companions are.
Those who don't know, they're Sarah-Jane and Romana II.
For a nutty Time Lord from the planet Gallifrey, he's so the brill. The Doctor is just... well... the awesomeness. He travels in a time machine of sorts, aptly disguised as a 1950's blue police call box, codenamed the TARDIS--Time and Relative Dimensions in Space.
He rights wrongs, battles enemies, gains good friends here and there. When mortally wounded he regenerates--he can regenerate up to 12 times, for a total of 13 lives... which is also a proper reason why there've been many actors portraying the Doctor since it first aired on the BBC in 1963. His most formidable foes include the Master, the Cybermen, and the Daleks...
So far the Doctor's regenerated 9 times, a total of 10 Doctors so far, and hence 10 actors portraying him ~
The First Doctor - William Hartnell
The Second Doctor - Patrick Troughton
The Third Doctor - Jon Pertwee
The Fourth Doctor - Tom Baker
The Firth Doctor - Peter Davidson
The Sixth Doctor - Colin Baker
The Seventh Doctor - Sylvester McCoy
The Eighth Doctor - Paul McGann
The Ninth Doctor - Christopher Eccleston
The Tenth Doctor - David Tennant
To celebrate this madcap British series--45 years strong and growing!--here's a StarMix of the classic theme song to the series. In many of its [semi-]unique forms.
The classic, much-loved theme--thank you Delia Derbyshire! ~
The slightly-reamp'd opening... Jon Pertwee and Tom Baker's theme ~
Tom Baker's second--and Peter Davidson's--theme [which I'm starting to love even more the more I listen to it] ~
Colin Baker's theme [which is enough for me to go, wtf!? --no, seriously] ~
1996... yes, the tv movie version... Paul McGann's theme [which, I'll be honest--I didn't really like it much] ~
From 2004, "One day, I shall come back" ~
From 2006, David Tennant's theme ~
And for the grand finale to this Time Punk's StarMix du jour just before the great Music Post [it's Thursday, and the rule for Thursday still applies in the codename series], my song of the day--this one's for Roboter, who--if I'm not mistaken--is a fan of electro. Well, sweetie, crank this tune up a good handful of notches. This goes for those of us who <3 Orbital too! Because... yes... you guessed it...
Theme - Doctor Who ~ Orbital
And on THAT note, I think it's time for the Thursday Tradition!!
~ me
Those who don't know, they're Sarah-Jane and Romana II.
For a nutty Time Lord from the planet Gallifrey, he's so the brill. The Doctor is just... well... the awesomeness. He travels in a time machine of sorts, aptly disguised as a 1950's blue police call box, codenamed the TARDIS--Time and Relative Dimensions in Space.
He rights wrongs, battles enemies, gains good friends here and there. When mortally wounded he regenerates--he can regenerate up to 12 times, for a total of 13 lives... which is also a proper reason why there've been many actors portraying the Doctor since it first aired on the BBC in 1963. His most formidable foes include the Master, the Cybermen, and the Daleks...
So far the Doctor's regenerated 9 times, a total of 10 Doctors so far, and hence 10 actors portraying him ~
The First Doctor - William Hartnell
The Second Doctor - Patrick Troughton
The Third Doctor - Jon Pertwee
The Fourth Doctor - Tom Baker
The Firth Doctor - Peter Davidson
The Sixth Doctor - Colin Baker
The Seventh Doctor - Sylvester McCoy
The Eighth Doctor - Paul McGann
The Ninth Doctor - Christopher Eccleston
The Tenth Doctor - David Tennant
To celebrate this madcap British series--45 years strong and growing!--here's a StarMix of the classic theme song to the series. In many of its [semi-]unique forms.
The classic, much-loved theme--thank you Delia Derbyshire! ~
The slightly-reamp'd opening... Jon Pertwee and Tom Baker's theme ~
Tom Baker's second--and Peter Davidson's--theme [which I'm starting to love even more the more I listen to it] ~
Colin Baker's theme [which is enough for me to go, wtf!? --no, seriously] ~
1996... yes, the tv movie version... Paul McGann's theme [which, I'll be honest--I didn't really like it much] ~
From 2004, "One day, I shall come back" ~
From 2006, David Tennant's theme ~
And for the grand finale to this Time Punk's StarMix du jour just before the great Music Post [it's Thursday, and the rule for Thursday still applies in the codename series], my song of the day--this one's for Roboter, who--if I'm not mistaken--is a fan of electro. Well, sweetie, crank this tune up a good handful of notches. This goes for those of us who <3 Orbital too! Because... yes... you guessed it...
Theme - Doctor Who ~ Orbital
And on THAT note, I think it's time for the Thursday Tradition!!
~ me
16 September 2008
codename ~ QUIRKSTER
Ladies and Gentlemen of the Underground, is it wrong to be oh-so-freckin'-wierd?
I prefer to be the wacky, cute and quirky individual that God made me to be, instead of so-called normal that everyone and their socialist cousin too asks of me. These days I've been asking myself, What do I love about this inconstant person called me? Well, it's the quirky things about me, so let me admit to myself [and you Underground Citizens] that...
~ I love--LOVE--listening to the soundtracks from the anime Sailor Moon. I never get tired of it. Seriously. Fan for 12 years, and for ever!
~ What's wrong with being the madcap StarKnight Captain and giving my friends odd nicknames/codenames?
~ I think the nickname Sunshine kinda suits me proper, don't you?
~ I do NOT tolerate arrogance, and I try myself not to show arrogance. Practicing what I preach, preaching by practicing, is the way it should be done. And many a guy has no chance with me because of their arrogance. 'Nuff said.
~ I wear black. Long-sleeves. In summertime. What!?
~ I like my punk with some Bach. Ah, the pride of being a Chorister!
~ Doctor WHO: Coolest. Show. Ever.
~ Tom Baker: Best. Doctor. Ever.
~ I'm all gush-silly over someone who lives in New York. And I love him!
~ My favorite colors are, in the order I started liking them [you read proper!]: blue, black, silver, purple, red and yellow. I just recently started liking pink. YES! Pink!!
~ I had a crush on Billy the Blue Ranger as a kid. And then Adam the Black Ranger. Never really understood why the other girls went after Tommy the White Ranger--HANDS OFF!! he belongs to Kimberly the Pink Ranger, don't you know? And I still think Jason the Red Ranger and Trini the Yellow Ranger made a cute couple. Yeah, I know. I'm a dork. But the old-school Power Rangers are just fcuking awesome!!
~ I like eating cinnamon bread and chocolate syrup sandwiches. YUM!
~ Favorite comfort food: grilled cheese and soup. Especially if Mom's making the grilled-cheese and the soup is chicken noodle or tomato.
~ My music range is [old-school] punk and alternative, new wave, indie, and electronic. Oh, and some classical stuff, especailly if it's choral work with the help of an organ. Or if it's on an organ or harpsichord altogether. Or if Dr. Rickman's on the piano.
~ Anyone remember The Adventures of Pete and Pete on Nickelodeon when we oldies were kiddies? I had a crush on Big Pete. He's better off with Ellen though. And Little Pete and Nona made a cute couple too!
~ I'm terrified of dragonflies but LOVE butterflies! [what?]
~ I have a short temper. Do NOT mess with me. We Hispanic folk have eeeeeeeevil tempers, no?
~ I'm scared of death. Seriously. I'm afraid of it. And when it happens to someone I know the fear goes 10X worse.
~ And did I mention, I'm a self-proclaimed butterball punk of my choir, and damn proud of!?
And to add to being the quirky oddity that I'm proud to be, thank you, Delia Derbyshire, for this classic Doctor WHO treat, which is my Song of the Day:
"Chromophone Band" - Delia Derbyshire
Adding to the oddness some more--a song that, mind you, the lead singer of this group is a GUY. Y'all been sorta warned. No, it's safe for work, really. Just... well... yeah. *shrug*
"Your Woman" - White Town
Alrighty, I think that takes care of the codename for now, I owe two tomorrow [one for yesterday]. Sunday doesn't count, as I was off one day on my countdown. *lol*
Until the next round...
~ me, codename quirkster
I prefer to be the wacky, cute and quirky individual that God made me to be, instead of so-called normal that everyone and their socialist cousin too asks of me. These days I've been asking myself, What do I love about this inconstant person called me? Well, it's the quirky things about me, so let me admit to myself [and you Underground Citizens] that...
~ I love--LOVE--listening to the soundtracks from the anime Sailor Moon. I never get tired of it. Seriously. Fan for 12 years, and for ever!
~ What's wrong with being the madcap StarKnight Captain and giving my friends odd nicknames/codenames?
~ I think the nickname Sunshine kinda suits me proper, don't you?
~ I do NOT tolerate arrogance, and I try myself not to show arrogance. Practicing what I preach, preaching by practicing, is the way it should be done. And many a guy has no chance with me because of their arrogance. 'Nuff said.
~ I wear black. Long-sleeves. In summertime. What!?
~ I like my punk with some Bach. Ah, the pride of being a Chorister!
~ Doctor WHO: Coolest. Show. Ever.
~ Tom Baker: Best. Doctor. Ever.
~ I'm all gush-silly over someone who lives in New York. And I love him!
~ My favorite colors are, in the order I started liking them [you read proper!]: blue, black, silver, purple, red and yellow. I just recently started liking pink. YES! Pink!!
~ I had a crush on Billy the Blue Ranger as a kid. And then Adam the Black Ranger. Never really understood why the other girls went after Tommy the White Ranger--HANDS OFF!! he belongs to Kimberly the Pink Ranger, don't you know? And I still think Jason the Red Ranger and Trini the Yellow Ranger made a cute couple. Yeah, I know. I'm a dork. But the old-school Power Rangers are just fcuking awesome!!
~ I like eating cinnamon bread and chocolate syrup sandwiches. YUM!
~ Favorite comfort food: grilled cheese and soup. Especially if Mom's making the grilled-cheese and the soup is chicken noodle or tomato.
~ My music range is [old-school] punk and alternative, new wave, indie, and electronic. Oh, and some classical stuff, especailly if it's choral work with the help of an organ. Or if it's on an organ or harpsichord altogether. Or if Dr. Rickman's on the piano.
~ Anyone remember The Adventures of Pete and Pete on Nickelodeon when we oldies were kiddies? I had a crush on Big Pete. He's better off with Ellen though. And Little Pete and Nona made a cute couple too!
~ I'm terrified of dragonflies but LOVE butterflies! [what?]
~ I have a short temper. Do NOT mess with me. We Hispanic folk have eeeeeeeevil tempers, no?
~ I'm scared of death. Seriously. I'm afraid of it. And when it happens to someone I know the fear goes 10X worse.
~ And did I mention, I'm a self-proclaimed butterball punk of my choir, and damn proud of!?
And to add to being the quirky oddity that I'm proud to be, thank you, Delia Derbyshire, for this classic Doctor WHO treat, which is my Song of the Day:
"Chromophone Band" - Delia Derbyshire
Adding to the oddness some more--a song that, mind you, the lead singer of this group is a GUY. Y'all been sorta warned. No, it's safe for work, really. Just... well... yeah. *shrug*
"Your Woman" - White Town
Alrighty, I think that takes care of the codename for now, I owe two tomorrow [one for yesterday]. Sunday doesn't count, as I was off one day on my countdown. *lol*
Until the next round...
~ me, codename quirkster
13 September 2008
codename ~ STORMFIGHTER
For those who don't know, I'm scared stupid of storms. And it's all because of a time that, when I was 8, I looked outside the windows of my grandparents' house to witness my very first hurricane. His name was Andrew. Thanks to him, I've been afraid of storms since. Especially if, yep--they were hurricanes.
I don't really do well with nasty weather. The only time I'll actually tolerate storms is if I'm at work [then it's not so hot in drive-thru] or if I'm at home [then I could sleep 'em away or something]. And technically I should be used to handling storms by now--I'M A FLORIDIAN FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!
All in all, I've really not a lot of patience for storms. Maybe a minor rainstorm. But thunderstorms... Tropical Storms... Hurricanes... no. I'm just a minor bit scared of 'em all. I hear about a Hurricane and--*roboter has heard it for himself!*--in short I just panic. I have to beat that PANIC button until it breaks.
The codename~STORMFIGHTER StarMix [albeit a minor short one--just two songs this time]
Yeah, I know. What a first song to start off with but hey. Thank you Shirley Manson for a song about being happy when it's pouring outside!
[/sarcasm]
"Only Happy When It Rains" - Garbage
The first time I heard this song was when I was at work, and Tropical Storm Fay was making her way through. That was last month too! When I heard this one of the regulars and I agreed that hey! Jack got it right, that fellow. Since then it's became my go-to song for when I get stuck at home, rained in. I'm not a big Jack Johnson fan, but I definitely love this song.
"Banana Pancakes" - Jack Johnson
A minor note--I'll be 25 in three weeks from today. Oh. bloody. joy.
~ me
I don't really do well with nasty weather. The only time I'll actually tolerate storms is if I'm at work [then it's not so hot in drive-thru] or if I'm at home [then I could sleep 'em away or something]. And technically I should be used to handling storms by now--I'M A FLORIDIAN FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!
All in all, I've really not a lot of patience for storms. Maybe a minor rainstorm. But thunderstorms... Tropical Storms... Hurricanes... no. I'm just a minor bit scared of 'em all. I hear about a Hurricane and--*roboter has heard it for himself!*--in short I just panic. I have to beat that PANIC button until it breaks.
The codename~STORMFIGHTER StarMix [albeit a minor short one--just two songs this time]
Yeah, I know. What a first song to start off with but hey. Thank you Shirley Manson for a song about being happy when it's pouring outside!
[/sarcasm]
"Only Happy When It Rains" - Garbage
The first time I heard this song was when I was at work, and Tropical Storm Fay was making her way through. That was last month too! When I heard this one of the regulars and I agreed that hey! Jack got it right, that fellow. Since then it's became my go-to song for when I get stuck at home, rained in. I'm not a big Jack Johnson fan, but I definitely love this song.
"Banana Pancakes" - Jack Johnson
A minor note--I'll be 25 in three weeks from today. Oh. bloody. joy.
~ me
12 September 2008
codename ~ TECHNO
So, the countdown to my birthday is, T minus three weeks from...
tomorrow!? Oh man... where's my PANIC button?
And so, with that in mind, the Chapterness will be on a minor, three-week hiatus so I can really start to reflect on a quarter-century that's developed within me. In this case, I'm recalling to my memory and your know-how 21 minor tidbits about me; they're classified as codenames. And the first in the codename series, TECHNO, blinks towards the side of me that indulges in electronic music. Big time. And that love is rightly--and mutually--shared with one particular person, to whom this post is especially for.
What better way to celebrate the weekend than a post-'em-up-on-the-blog StarMix? It's been a long week--it's time to freckin' CELEBRATE!!
Kicking off the codename series, and this crazy StarMix of my fave techno from both past and recent, is a song that, I swear, Roboter fcuking loves. In fact, not only did he drive me halfway up the wall to where I decided to play the song for him on my darn 'Pod, but this song's been stuck in my head ALL BLOODY DAY LONG!! Thanks a bunches, hunny... :-P Hey, it's all good.
"Satisfaction" - Benny Benassi
And while I'm thinking ahead on the industrial tidbit, how 'bout some Combichrist? Now mind you, a couple of years ago before the car died, I would go to Indie Bar twice a week--Saturdays for 80's night, Wednesdays [now Thursdays apparently] for Goth/Industrial night. And this was one of the staples.
"This Shit Will Fcuk You Up" - Combichrist
Note--this will NOT be an all-male music post. Welcome aboard, Client!!
"Drive" - Client
And now, from Germany with love... And One!! Saw 'em last year April when they opened for VNV Nation. Fcukin' awesome set. This track was one of 'em.
"Military Fashion Show" - And One
How 'bout us some old-school industrial? Thank you, Front 242!!
"Headhunter" - Front 242
Currently I've got this song on repeat. This is actually my favorite of Benny Benassi's stuff. Roboter's probably gonna be like, OMGWTF...!?
"Who's Your Daddy?" - Benny Benassi
Anybody remember this track? --hey, I had a crush on Richard Patrick from Filter at the time this song came out. What!? The tune itself is ace; Richard's just proper eye-candy on the video!!
"Trip Like I Do" - The Crystal Method [feat. Richard Patrick]
And... well, since I'm nice and I'm just as big a fan of this song, why the heck not?
"Busy Child" - The Crystal Method
Some more Combichrist. Roboter's probably rolling his eyes. Or not. But anywho, this is my favorite Combichrist track. I just... I just bloody love this song.
"This Is My Rifle" - Combichrist
Back to some girl-power. More Client!! "I've got my red dress on..." ...yeah, needless to say I have two red dresses, thanks to this song. What?
"Lights Go Out" - Client
And while I'm still in a femme-fatales-of-techno, I think the lovely Goldfrapp deserves to be in this StarMix as well. Though my fave track from her is "Ohh La La", I do like this song very much as well...
"Slide In" - Goldfrapp
Jumping back a couple of years... okay, maybe about a decade or so... some Chemical Brothers, anyone? Yeah, I know, you remember this one...
"Block Rockin' Beats" - The Chemical Brothers
And, going further back, some more Front 242; it's an alright tune but I still consider "Headhunter" as my fave from the Front...
"Welcome To Paradise" - Front 242
How about a remix of a good New Order track? I'll have to defo remember to post the original on another codename post in the near future.
"Everything's Gone Green" [Martin Buttrich Remix] - New Order
This *ALMOST* trips into some sense of electro. Hell, I'll post it anyway. She's got some good stuff anyway, in my opinion. So hey, why not? Now while she leans more towards the pop/hip hop/r+b genre, this track doesn't really fit in that. And, like I said, it's almost electro. My opinion, but you can judge for yourself.
"Kremlin Dusk" - Utada
--oh shoot, I almost forgot Trent. Reznor, that is.
"The Perfect Drug" - Nine Inch Nails
Back to Germany for some more And One. And... hey Roboter!! this tune's in German!!
"Panzermensch" - And One
Speaking of Germany, how about the band that started it all for electronica? Showing love from the Underground to our beloved Mensch-Maschinen--I would use "Metropolis" but as I'm in a damn good mood...!
"Nummern/Computerwelt 2" - Kraftwerk
One last tune and... unfortunately... I do NOT remember the name of the song nor who does it sooo... yeah. It'll be in the unknown territory, but I still love this song. As it was the third track on an industrial mix I had that I still listen to, I'm codenaming this as Track 3. I can't believe I forgot this... damn the fact that I lost the stupid tracklist for that StarMix...
Track 3
*whew!!* Alright!! The weekend has officially begun, and so has the codename series too! It'll be an interesting self-analysis upon my quarter-century; I can only hope I don't judge myself all too harshly...
Oh for the love of... it's the weekend. Why am I moping? Time to crank the tunage up!! Happy Weekend in the Underground!!
Until the next round...
~ me
tomorrow!? Oh man... where's my PANIC button?
And so, with that in mind, the Chapterness will be on a minor, three-week hiatus so I can really start to reflect on a quarter-century that's developed within me. In this case, I'm recalling to my memory and your know-how 21 minor tidbits about me; they're classified as codenames. And the first in the codename series, TECHNO, blinks towards the side of me that indulges in electronic music. Big time. And that love is rightly--and mutually--shared with one particular person, to whom this post is especially for.
What better way to celebrate the weekend than a post-'em-up-on-the-blog StarMix? It's been a long week--it's time to freckin' CELEBRATE!!
Kicking off the codename series, and this crazy StarMix of my fave techno from both past and recent, is a song that, I swear, Roboter fcuking loves. In fact, not only did he drive me halfway up the wall to where I decided to play the song for him on my darn 'Pod, but this song's been stuck in my head ALL BLOODY DAY LONG!! Thanks a bunches, hunny... :-P Hey, it's all good.
"Satisfaction" - Benny Benassi
And while I'm thinking ahead on the industrial tidbit, how 'bout some Combichrist? Now mind you, a couple of years ago before the car died, I would go to Indie Bar twice a week--Saturdays for 80's night, Wednesdays [now Thursdays apparently] for Goth/Industrial night. And this was one of the staples.
"This Shit Will Fcuk You Up" - Combichrist
Note--this will NOT be an all-male music post. Welcome aboard, Client!!
"Drive" - Client
And now, from Germany with love... And One!! Saw 'em last year April when they opened for VNV Nation. Fcukin' awesome set. This track was one of 'em.
"Military Fashion Show" - And One
How 'bout us some old-school industrial? Thank you, Front 242!!
"Headhunter" - Front 242
Currently I've got this song on repeat. This is actually my favorite of Benny Benassi's stuff. Roboter's probably gonna be like, OMGWTF...!?
"Who's Your Daddy?" - Benny Benassi
Anybody remember this track? --hey, I had a crush on Richard Patrick from Filter at the time this song came out. What!? The tune itself is ace; Richard's just proper eye-candy on the video!!
"Trip Like I Do" - The Crystal Method [feat. Richard Patrick]
And... well, since I'm nice and I'm just as big a fan of this song, why the heck not?
"Busy Child" - The Crystal Method
Some more Combichrist. Roboter's probably rolling his eyes. Or not. But anywho, this is my favorite Combichrist track. I just... I just bloody love this song.
"This Is My Rifle" - Combichrist
Back to some girl-power. More Client!! "I've got my red dress on..." ...yeah, needless to say I have two red dresses, thanks to this song. What?
"Lights Go Out" - Client
And while I'm still in a femme-fatales-of-techno, I think the lovely Goldfrapp deserves to be in this StarMix as well. Though my fave track from her is "Ohh La La", I do like this song very much as well...
"Slide In" - Goldfrapp
Jumping back a couple of years... okay, maybe about a decade or so... some Chemical Brothers, anyone? Yeah, I know, you remember this one...
"Block Rockin' Beats" - The Chemical Brothers
And, going further back, some more Front 242; it's an alright tune but I still consider "Headhunter" as my fave from the Front...
"Welcome To Paradise" - Front 242
How about a remix of a good New Order track? I'll have to defo remember to post the original on another codename post in the near future.
"Everything's Gone Green" [Martin Buttrich Remix] - New Order
This *ALMOST* trips into some sense of electro. Hell, I'll post it anyway. She's got some good stuff anyway, in my opinion. So hey, why not? Now while she leans more towards the pop/hip hop/r+b genre, this track doesn't really fit in that. And, like I said, it's almost electro. My opinion, but you can judge for yourself.
"Kremlin Dusk" - Utada
--oh shoot, I almost forgot Trent. Reznor, that is.
"The Perfect Drug" - Nine Inch Nails
Back to Germany for some more And One. And... hey Roboter!! this tune's in German!!
"Panzermensch" - And One
Speaking of Germany, how about the band that started it all for electronica? Showing love from the Underground to our beloved Mensch-Maschinen--I would use "Metropolis" but as I'm in a damn good mood...!
"Nummern/Computerwelt 2" - Kraftwerk
One last tune and... unfortunately... I do NOT remember the name of the song nor who does it sooo... yeah. It'll be in the unknown territory, but I still love this song. As it was the third track on an industrial mix I had that I still listen to, I'm codenaming this as Track 3. I can't believe I forgot this... damn the fact that I lost the stupid tracklist for that StarMix...
Track 3
*whew!!* Alright!! The weekend has officially begun, and so has the codename series too! It'll be an interesting self-analysis upon my quarter-century; I can only hope I don't judge myself all too harshly...
Oh for the love of... it's the weekend. Why am I moping? Time to crank the tunage up!! Happy Weekend in the Underground!!
Until the next round...
~ me
11 September 2008
I'm Addicted to Thursdayholism!!
Happy Thursday, Underground Citizens! :-) But before we get to a new idea for the Starian Union Radio Top 20, a moment of silence is in order, for two reasons:
~ for my coworker Sarah, whose daughter's cousin was killed recently.
~ for the victims in New York, Pennsylvania and the Pentagon, of this day seven years ago--this day to not be forgotten.
Alright, that done, new idea for the Starian Union Radio Top 20--how about the Starian Union Radio Random 20? Since I've darn near lost track of it all, and seeing it's been the same old baloney-and-queso, I think WSUR needs something just a tad bit different. Sooo... time to crank up the 'Pod at random and have some fun here. What say y'all? We up for this or what?
The first ever Starian Union Radio Random 20! ~
1] "Every Day Is Halloween" - Ministry
2] "Rise" - PiL
3] "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers *Song of the Week*
4] "Boots of Chinese Plastic" - The Pretenders *NEW!!*
5] "Vanishing Point" - New Order
6] "How" - Lisa Loeb
7] "Luno" - Bloc Party
8] "Another Morning Stoner" - Trail of Dead
9] "Say" - John Mayer
10] "The Metro" - Berlin
11] "Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
12] "People Who Died" - Jim Carroll Band
13] "Morning Glory" - Oasis
14] "Love Is Noise" - The Verve *NEW!!*
15] "Singing In My Sleep" - Semisonic
16] "Bulls On Parade" - Rage Against The Machine
17] "Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
18] "American Girl" - Tom Petty
19] "In Your Eyes" - Peter Gabriel
20] "No Love Lost" - Warsaw
Also, before I forget, the song of the week, as I noted, is "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" by The Proclaimers, which is David Tennant's favorite band. [Tennant's the one who's the 10th Doctor on Doctor Who in case anyone here forgot.]
"I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
Meanwhile, The Pretenders are RETURNING!! *YESS!!* This song aired yesterday morning as I was getting ready to go to work. I've only heard it, er, twice? I fcuking love it already. Their new album will be out next month.
"Boots of Chinese Plastic" - The Pretenders
AND, Forth by The Verve is my album of the week. This is my favorite track from the album, a rather almost-punky side to 'em. Richard Ashcroft+Co. are just outright brilliant on this track. The entire album in my opinion is ace.
"Noise Epic" - The Verve
So there you have it--I declare Thursday as our Official Music Day here in the Underground! Here's to the great random [ORGANISED!!] noise that is music!!
Until the next round...
~ me
~ for my coworker Sarah, whose daughter's cousin was killed recently.
~ for the victims in New York, Pennsylvania and the Pentagon, of this day seven years ago--this day to not be forgotten.
Alright, that done, new idea for the Starian Union Radio Top 20--how about the Starian Union Radio Random 20? Since I've darn near lost track of it all, and seeing it's been the same old baloney-and-queso, I think WSUR needs something just a tad bit different. Sooo... time to crank up the 'Pod at random and have some fun here. What say y'all? We up for this or what?
The first ever Starian Union Radio Random 20! ~
1] "Every Day Is Halloween" - Ministry
2] "Rise" - PiL
3] "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers *Song of the Week*
4] "Boots of Chinese Plastic" - The Pretenders *NEW!!*
5] "Vanishing Point" - New Order
6] "How" - Lisa Loeb
7] "Luno" - Bloc Party
8] "Another Morning Stoner" - Trail of Dead
9] "Say" - John Mayer
10] "The Metro" - Berlin
11] "Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
12] "People Who Died" - Jim Carroll Band
13] "Morning Glory" - Oasis
14] "Love Is Noise" - The Verve *NEW!!*
15] "Singing In My Sleep" - Semisonic
16] "Bulls On Parade" - Rage Against The Machine
17] "Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
18] "American Girl" - Tom Petty
19] "In Your Eyes" - Peter Gabriel
20] "No Love Lost" - Warsaw
Also, before I forget, the song of the week, as I noted, is "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" by The Proclaimers, which is David Tennant's favorite band. [Tennant's the one who's the 10th Doctor on Doctor Who in case anyone here forgot.]
"I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
Meanwhile, The Pretenders are RETURNING!! *YESS!!* This song aired yesterday morning as I was getting ready to go to work. I've only heard it, er, twice? I fcuking love it already. Their new album will be out next month.
"Boots of Chinese Plastic" - The Pretenders
AND, Forth by The Verve is my album of the week. This is my favorite track from the album, a rather almost-punky side to 'em. Richard Ashcroft+Co. are just outright brilliant on this track. The entire album in my opinion is ace.
"Noise Epic" - The Verve
So there you have it--I declare Thursday as our Official Music Day here in the Underground! Here's to the great random [ORGANISED!!] noise that is music!!
Until the next round...
~ me
10 September 2008
Chapter 178 ~ *meh. part two.*
Okay, considering I've been God-awful busy these past handful of days... well, I'm irritable at the moment. With the exception of Roboter and a good small handful of coworkers, I'm starting a minor warpath of a rant.
First of all, the weather's just a mess. Thank you, Hurricane Ike. 'Nuff said on that subject.
Other than, from Yahoo! News - Hurricane Ike over Gulf of Mexico, aims at Texas.
Second, to everyone that made my day at work pisstabulous--and if you're reading this and you KNOW that in some way you got on my last nerve in my 5-to-1 workday!--F off. The last thing I need is for your lack of thinking skills, your lack of manners, and your attitude thinking that the entire world revolves around YOU, to get me at my brink. Bad enough I'm pushed to the brink to get 105 cars during Breakfast Rush and ONE-HUNDRED-AND-GODD*MN-TWENTY CARS through the Lunch Rush. And I'm tired. And I'm in a bitchy mood. And if you were among the few and MANY that got me this way, I really, really dislike you. That's all I'm saying on this matter.
*sigh* And, sadly, third--a moment of silence needed, for two of my friends:
--for my friend Paul in the loss of his father. Paul is the director of the Middle School Youth Ministry at St.B's. He's also a fan of the 4th Doctor, as well as a good friend of mine.
--for Hester, a former coworker of mine who, upon learning she had cancer, moved back home to Ireland a couple of years ago. Last night our maintenance man Ross, who would often call her to check up on her and update the few of us who worked with her, got a call from her son with the news that she had died.
--for a friend of mine on Opacity.us, codename Taubin, who had to put his other beloved dog, Lulu, to sleep on Monday night. Earlier last month he had to put his first dog Bozo to sleep. Both pets had lived long lives. And I once again grieve for Taubin.
The Count of the Mourners' Tears now stands at thirteen, two of them belonging to one of my friends, and one of the deaths a former coworker of mine.
I think the rant of the day I posted on Opacity.us pretty much sums it up for today:
Death, where the hell did you come from, and when the hell are you going to stop throwing your damn two cents' worth into my quarter-life crisis?
The past 5 months, 11 of my friends have lost either a pet or a loved one. One of them had to say goodbye to BOTH of his beloved pets. And this morning I hear of death #13 in what I call my Chain of Mourners' Tears--and this time, you finally decide to end the misery of a fellow coworker who, when she learned she had cancer, moved back to her native Ireland. To die. And this was a couple of years ago when she left. Now, this morning, I hear you struck again.
What more are you going to do, before 4 October, when I see the last 6 months of being 24 filled with... with... YOU!?
I'm afraid of you. And I know I shouldn't hate you, for the faith of a Believer. But I do. Because the pain's too much to bear, the heart grieves because it loves. And all I can do is shed tears in peace, knowing there isn't much else I can do for the ones who grieve.
So thank you, once again, for--even though there is no suffering and I rejoice in that--you otherwise added to an already pissy day I've been having. I hope you're happy now.
*sigh* And I still need a good cry, and a good nap, before I can get to class tonight.
Oh and, I had a quote of the day, from my coworker Michelle but... sadly I've forgotten it, I've been much too glum today.
*meh. life is a mess. and i'm in the middle of it.*
~ me
First of all, the weather's just a mess. Thank you, Hurricane Ike. 'Nuff said on that subject.
Other than, from Yahoo! News - Hurricane Ike over Gulf of Mexico, aims at Texas.
Second, to everyone that made my day at work pisstabulous--and if you're reading this and you KNOW that in some way you got on my last nerve in my 5-to-1 workday!--F off. The last thing I need is for your lack of thinking skills, your lack of manners, and your attitude thinking that the entire world revolves around YOU, to get me at my brink. Bad enough I'm pushed to the brink to get 105 cars during Breakfast Rush and ONE-HUNDRED-AND-GODD*MN-TWENTY CARS through the Lunch Rush. And I'm tired. And I'm in a bitchy mood. And if you were among the few and MANY that got me this way, I really, really dislike you. That's all I'm saying on this matter.
*sigh* And, sadly, third--a moment of silence needed, for two of my friends:
--for my friend Paul in the loss of his father. Paul is the director of the Middle School Youth Ministry at St.B's. He's also a fan of the 4th Doctor, as well as a good friend of mine.
--for Hester, a former coworker of mine who, upon learning she had cancer, moved back home to Ireland a couple of years ago. Last night our maintenance man Ross, who would often call her to check up on her and update the few of us who worked with her, got a call from her son with the news that she had died.
--for a friend of mine on Opacity.us, codename Taubin, who had to put his other beloved dog, Lulu, to sleep on Monday night. Earlier last month he had to put his first dog Bozo to sleep. Both pets had lived long lives. And I once again grieve for Taubin.
The Count of the Mourners' Tears now stands at thirteen, two of them belonging to one of my friends, and one of the deaths a former coworker of mine.
I think the rant of the day I posted on Opacity.us pretty much sums it up for today:
Death, where the hell did you come from, and when the hell are you going to stop throwing your damn two cents' worth into my quarter-life crisis?
The past 5 months, 11 of my friends have lost either a pet or a loved one. One of them had to say goodbye to BOTH of his beloved pets. And this morning I hear of death #13 in what I call my Chain of Mourners' Tears--and this time, you finally decide to end the misery of a fellow coworker who, when she learned she had cancer, moved back to her native Ireland. To die. And this was a couple of years ago when she left. Now, this morning, I hear you struck again.
What more are you going to do, before 4 October, when I see the last 6 months of being 24 filled with... with... YOU!?
I'm afraid of you. And I know I shouldn't hate you, for the faith of a Believer. But I do. Because the pain's too much to bear, the heart grieves because it loves. And all I can do is shed tears in peace, knowing there isn't much else I can do for the ones who grieve.
So thank you, once again, for--even though there is no suffering and I rejoice in that--you otherwise added to an already pissy day I've been having. I hope you're happy now.
*sigh* And I still need a good cry, and a good nap, before I can get to class tonight.
Oh and, I had a quote of the day, from my coworker Michelle but... sadly I've forgotten it, I've been much too glum today.
*meh. life is a mess. and i'm in the middle of it.*
~ me
06 September 2008
Chapter 177 ~ ...oh for the love of... NOT AGAIN.
Just like last year. Getting over a minor heartache--Roboter and I have talked only 4 times these past two weeks. And work is a mess. AND...
one of my friends is engaged. That I once had a crush on. It's StarKnight Skater, whom I've known for 5 years now.
You know, I really don't seem to do well the last month before my Birthday, it seems. What happened a year ago... *hunts through the archive*
--OH YEAH! Pouncer gave me word of Agathangelos' engagement which, unfortunately, I didn't get to attend the wedding of. Something that, unfortunately, I still get upset at Siren over, but as long as neither of us mention the wedding my temper's at bay.
Tuesday 25 September 2008 ~ Chapter 67 ~ Sort of a Depressing Turn of Events.
Okay, I need to stop moping but, there's been a lot going on these past two weeks that, I'd been so worn out I didn't even remember to do the Top 20 so, before I forget altogether let's take care of that.
Starian Union Radio Top 20 [sorry this is 2 days late, all]
1] "NWA" - The Terrible Sea
2] "Harley David [Son of a Bitch]" - Bollock Brothers
3] "Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins
4] "Lost in the Supermarket" - The Clash
5] "Primitive Notion" - New Order
6] "New York" - Micro Chip League
7] "Say" - John Mayer
8] "The Queen Is Dead" - The Smiths
9] "Banana Pancakes" - Jack Johnson
10] "The New Pollution" - Beck
11] "New York Minute" - Don Henley
12] "Banquet" [The Streets Remix] - Bloc Party
13] "Let's Push Things Forward" - The Streets
14] "New York Minute" - Don Henley
15] "Theft, And Wandering Around Lost" - The Cocteau Twins
16] "Shut Up And Let Me Go" - The Ting Tings
17] "Charmer" - Kings of Leon
18] "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
19] "Falling Down" [Chemical Brothers Remix] - Oasis
20] "Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
Alright, that done, things need to be addressed, *stat*--
~ Rage Against the Machine, you are definitely some serious heroes in the music world. --those wondering why I say this, this recent YouTube from 2 September sums it up quite nobly:
"Bulls on Parade" and "Killing in the Name of" - Rage Against the Machine
For the background on this, read more at the blog on Above the Fold.
~ Siren, thank you again for the half-gallon of mint-chocolate chip ice cream. Sadly I haven't snacked on that since you visited Tuesday afternoon. I haven't finished the half-gallon though... got a helluva long way to go.
~ Kit darlin', whoop your ex in the behind on my behalf, because he kinda screwed up our hang-out time Thursday. Or not. In any case, see you Monday afternoon after I'm done at three. Hopefully. We defo need to hang out.
~ DJ, your comic version of Trans-Europa is nothing short of brilliant!! --for those who aren't familiar too well with her she's a fellow Barney's Angel and, she's 15 and LOVES Kraftwerk. And she draws wonderfully. I have evidence.
This is her cover for her comic version of Trans-Europa *it's a clicky-thumbnail because, really, yes, it's kinda big to fit on this blog, but it's still awesomeness*
~ Louise dear, I never thought you'd get the tail end of the storms we Floridians/American folk get as far as Tropical Storms, Hurricanes, and the like. My thoughts are definitely with you. As well as to all in the path of these darn storms. I hate 'em, don't you know? [Hurricane Andrew started it all for me, Summer of '92, folks.] And I do want to thank you again for putting together this for me, which is my song of the day for today:
"Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
~ Saint Barnabas folks, the Choir says, as of tomorrow, weeee're baaaack!!
~ The Verve, THANK YOU BIG TIME FOR REUNITING!! I didn't think you guys sound THIS awesome now, I'm definitely getting your new album ASAP, because this song's been playing on the indie station here. I didn't recognize you guys... OMG. I'm defo happy you've guys got new stuff out; hell, I didn't even realise you guys had your new album "Forth" out on 26 August--gosh I'm behind...
"Love Is Noise" - The Verve *yes, the verve!*
~ And finally, Roboter--yes, I saved you for last, 'cause everything I've had to say to you, I've e-mailed. I'm not gonna repost all that on here. Kinda lacked the patience for it.
...alrighty folks, I think I've just about said everything that should've been said this week. And tonight, for the first time in two weeks, I think I'm going to bed with a helluva clearer conscience. And God himself knows why.
*sigh* Now, anchoring down for the consequences of the letter--I'm hoping against hope that... well... the situation won't be as bad as I've been wigging out on.
*fingers crossed!!*
And until the next round, which won't be until Tuesday most likely...
~ me
one of my friends is engaged. That I once had a crush on. It's StarKnight Skater, whom I've known for 5 years now.
You know, I really don't seem to do well the last month before my Birthday, it seems. What happened a year ago... *hunts through the archive*
--OH YEAH! Pouncer gave me word of Agathangelos' engagement which, unfortunately, I didn't get to attend the wedding of. Something that, unfortunately, I still get upset at Siren over, but as long as neither of us mention the wedding my temper's at bay.
Tuesday 25 September 2008 ~ Chapter 67 ~ Sort of a Depressing Turn of Events.
Okay, I need to stop moping but, there's been a lot going on these past two weeks that, I'd been so worn out I didn't even remember to do the Top 20 so, before I forget altogether let's take care of that.
Starian Union Radio Top 20 [sorry this is 2 days late, all]
1] "NWA" - The Terrible Sea
2] "Harley David [Son of a Bitch]" - Bollock Brothers
3] "Handle With Care" - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins
4] "Lost in the Supermarket" - The Clash
5] "Primitive Notion" - New Order
6] "New York" - Micro Chip League
7] "Say" - John Mayer
8] "The Queen Is Dead" - The Smiths
9] "Banana Pancakes" - Jack Johnson
10] "The New Pollution" - Beck
11] "New York Minute" - Don Henley
12] "Banquet" [The Streets Remix] - Bloc Party
13] "Let's Push Things Forward" - The Streets
14] "New York Minute" - Don Henley
15] "Theft, And Wandering Around Lost" - The Cocteau Twins
16] "Shut Up And Let Me Go" - The Ting Tings
17] "Charmer" - Kings of Leon
18] "I'm Gonna Be [500 Miles]" - The Proclaimers
19] "Falling Down" [Chemical Brothers Remix] - Oasis
20] "Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
Alright, that done, things need to be addressed, *stat*--
~ Rage Against the Machine, you are definitely some serious heroes in the music world. --those wondering why I say this, this recent YouTube from 2 September sums it up quite nobly:
"Bulls on Parade" and "Killing in the Name of" - Rage Against the Machine
For the background on this, read more at the blog on Above the Fold.
~ Siren, thank you again for the half-gallon of mint-chocolate chip ice cream. Sadly I haven't snacked on that since you visited Tuesday afternoon. I haven't finished the half-gallon though... got a helluva long way to go.
~ Kit darlin', whoop your ex in the behind on my behalf, because he kinda screwed up our hang-out time Thursday. Or not. In any case, see you Monday afternoon after I'm done at three. Hopefully. We defo need to hang out.
~ DJ, your comic version of Trans-Europa is nothing short of brilliant!! --for those who aren't familiar too well with her she's a fellow Barney's Angel and, she's 15 and LOVES Kraftwerk. And she draws wonderfully. I have evidence.
This is her cover for her comic version of Trans-Europa *it's a clicky-thumbnail because, really, yes, it's kinda big to fit on this blog, but it's still awesomeness*
~ Louise dear, I never thought you'd get the tail end of the storms we Floridians/American folk get as far as Tropical Storms, Hurricanes, and the like. My thoughts are definitely with you. As well as to all in the path of these darn storms. I hate 'em, don't you know? [Hurricane Andrew started it all for me, Summer of '92, folks.] And I do want to thank you again for putting together this for me, which is my song of the day for today:
"Neon Lights/Neonlicht" - Kraftwerk
~ Saint Barnabas folks, the Choir says, as of tomorrow, weeee're baaaack!!
~ The Verve, THANK YOU BIG TIME FOR REUNITING!! I didn't think you guys sound THIS awesome now, I'm definitely getting your new album ASAP, because this song's been playing on the indie station here. I didn't recognize you guys... OMG. I'm defo happy you've guys got new stuff out; hell, I didn't even realise you guys had your new album "Forth" out on 26 August--gosh I'm behind...
"Love Is Noise" - The Verve *yes, the verve!*
~ And finally, Roboter--yes, I saved you for last, 'cause everything I've had to say to you, I've e-mailed. I'm not gonna repost all that on here. Kinda lacked the patience for it.
...alrighty folks, I think I've just about said everything that should've been said this week. And tonight, for the first time in two weeks, I think I'm going to bed with a helluva clearer conscience. And God himself knows why.
*sigh* Now, anchoring down for the consequences of the letter--I'm hoping against hope that... well... the situation won't be as bad as I've been wigging out on.
*fingers crossed!!*
And until the next round, which won't be until Tuesday most likely...
~ me
03 September 2008
Chapter 176 ~ *meh.*
...okay, I'm gonna be honest here. Tomorrow I start counting down to my birthday--one month from tomorrow I'll be a quarter-century old. And I'll admit, I am *NOT* excited for this. A lot has happened--especially within the last 5 months. Ten friends have lost loved ones, my heart got broken twice [almost thrice!], work's turned into hell, and not to mention the damn leakage from the ceiling.
To add to work's hell, today fit the definition proper. Who's the next jerk to put the blame on me for the faults of someone else? No, don't answer that question, please...
I haven't really had a chance to get a good cry out as of yet, as I'm still busy, trying to get a handful more done, and a new Wednesday evening class starting tonight. AND I still have to get ready for work tomorrow morning as well.
*sigh* All this talk about getting old has made me very, very depressed.
Hell, I might not even have time for a good cry tonight. I just realized that.
The most irritating of things happen to me at the least necessary of times. Life really fucking sucks at the moment. And that's about as honest an opinion of today as it's going to get.
~ me
To add to work's hell, today fit the definition proper. Who's the next jerk to put the blame on me for the faults of someone else? No, don't answer that question, please...
I haven't really had a chance to get a good cry out as of yet, as I'm still busy, trying to get a handful more done, and a new Wednesday evening class starting tonight. AND I still have to get ready for work tomorrow morning as well.
*sigh* All this talk about getting old has made me very, very depressed.
Hell, I might not even have time for a good cry tonight. I just realized that.
The most irritating of things happen to me at the least necessary of times. Life really fucking sucks at the moment. And that's about as honest an opinion of today as it's going to get.
~ me
01 September 2008
Chapter 175/3 ~ Okay... so I'm bored... MUSIC TIME!!
I know, the last thing I should be on my day off is bored but, Kit's not awake and Roboter's at work and Siren's in Miami. Sooo... what better thing to do at the moment than post some music. Yes, it's an 80's go-round. Again.
*sigh* All for the sake of anti-boredom, happy Labor Day.
Track uno, 'cause... hello, it's Monday...
"Blue Monday '88" - New Order
One of my all-time favorite Police songs, grew up listening to this...
"Synchronicity II" - The Police
I know, some of you are gonna go, WTF, Sunshine...
*but i love the song so let's ask me if i care...*
"Mickey" - Toni Basil
Okay, the lyrics aren't that easy to make out but, I still love the song anyway, and it's a staple on my near-150-song "Go Sunshine Go!" playlist on my iPod...
"Love Plus One" - Haircut 100
Okay, this track's actually from '79 but, it's my favorite song of all time and, it's also on my "Go Sunshine Go!" playlist...
"Transmission" - Joy Division
And, how the Helen of Troy could you NOT love this song!? Really...
"What I Like About You" - The Romantics
I know, I know--Sunshine, why the hell are you posting THIS song on here? Uhm... maybe because I like the song...
"People Who Died" - The Jim Carroll Band
Just heard this song a couple of days ago actually. I almost forgot about this classic...
"A Girl Like You" - The Smithereens
One of those all-time favorites. Why not...
"Goody Two Shoes" - Adam Ant
Another New Order favorite. Honestly much better than the original Technique album version...
"Round & Round" [7" version] - New Order
How about another Smithereens track? Actually, that's my fave Smithereens track...
"Only A Memory" - The Smithereens
Last night my fave radio show, Sunday Night Vinyl, played this classic gem. And for the fun of it, hey! it's the Clash! It's going on this post...
"Police On My Back" - The Clash
Some recent-school Erasure. What!? I don't mind some Erasure every now and then. Now get over it, m'kay?...
"Chorus" - Erasure
Sing-along time, folks. You know this one...
"Don't You [Forget About Me]" - Simple Minds
From the Livid Festival in Australia, a Joy Division cover...
"Love Will Tear Us Apart" - The Cure
And because I have, like, 4 or 5 different covers [including the one above] of the classic, the original...
"Love Will Tear Us Apart" - Joy Division
This track's for Roboter, as Friday night I was listening to this song and, as he usually does the grocery shopping on Friday nights hearing this song reminded me of him. I told him so last night and, to my surprise he had never heard the song. Roboter, this track's for you...
"Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash
Okay okay, one more Clash track; last one for this post, I promise [omg. i never thought i'd end up posting lots of clash today. htf did that happen?]...
"The Magnificent Seven" [12" version] - The Clash
Sing-along time, once more--come on, I CAN'T HEAR YOU...
"Video Killed The Radio Star" - Buggles
And finally, because this is in my opinion one of the best "love songs" ever written [and it describes me proper, despite the fact that while it's true, never been near a university, i'm damn intelligent thank.you.very.much!]...
"The Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
...well damn! I think I outdid myself today for this Underground Soundtrack but hey! it was worth the... erm... hour and 20 minutes to put this together! *lol* Mission accomplish. And I even found my favorite love song of all time, which was, no surprise, "Mayor of Simpleton!"
Yay me, punks. ^_^
Okay, I think I'm done blogging for the day; enjoy the tunage, Citizens...
~ me
*sigh* All for the sake of anti-boredom, happy Labor Day.
Track uno, 'cause... hello, it's Monday...
"Blue Monday '88" - New Order
One of my all-time favorite Police songs, grew up listening to this...
"Synchronicity II" - The Police
I know, some of you are gonna go, WTF, Sunshine...
*but i love the song so let's ask me if i care...*
"Mickey" - Toni Basil
Okay, the lyrics aren't that easy to make out but, I still love the song anyway, and it's a staple on my near-150-song "Go Sunshine Go!" playlist on my iPod...
"Love Plus One" - Haircut 100
Okay, this track's actually from '79 but, it's my favorite song of all time and, it's also on my "Go Sunshine Go!" playlist...
"Transmission" - Joy Division
And, how the Helen of Troy could you NOT love this song!? Really...
"What I Like About You" - The Romantics
I know, I know--Sunshine, why the hell are you posting THIS song on here? Uhm... maybe because I like the song...
"People Who Died" - The Jim Carroll Band
Just heard this song a couple of days ago actually. I almost forgot about this classic...
"A Girl Like You" - The Smithereens
One of those all-time favorites. Why not...
"Goody Two Shoes" - Adam Ant
Another New Order favorite. Honestly much better than the original Technique album version...
"Round & Round" [7" version] - New Order
How about another Smithereens track? Actually, that's my fave Smithereens track...
"Only A Memory" - The Smithereens
Last night my fave radio show, Sunday Night Vinyl, played this classic gem. And for the fun of it, hey! it's the Clash! It's going on this post...
"Police On My Back" - The Clash
Some recent-school Erasure. What!? I don't mind some Erasure every now and then. Now get over it, m'kay?...
"Chorus" - Erasure
Sing-along time, folks. You know this one...
"Don't You [Forget About Me]" - Simple Minds
From the Livid Festival in Australia, a Joy Division cover...
"Love Will Tear Us Apart" - The Cure
And because I have, like, 4 or 5 different covers [including the one above] of the classic, the original...
"Love Will Tear Us Apart" - Joy Division
This track's for Roboter, as Friday night I was listening to this song and, as he usually does the grocery shopping on Friday nights hearing this song reminded me of him. I told him so last night and, to my surprise he had never heard the song. Roboter, this track's for you...
"Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash
Okay okay, one more Clash track; last one for this post, I promise [omg. i never thought i'd end up posting lots of clash today. htf did that happen?]...
"The Magnificent Seven" [12" version] - The Clash
Sing-along time, once more--come on, I CAN'T HEAR YOU...
"Video Killed The Radio Star" - Buggles
And finally, because this is in my opinion one of the best "love songs" ever written [and it describes me proper, despite the fact that while it's true, never been near a university, i'm damn intelligent thank.you.very.much!]...
"The Mayor of Simpleton" - XTC
...well damn! I think I outdid myself today for this Underground Soundtrack but hey! it was worth the... erm... hour and 20 minutes to put this together! *lol* Mission accomplish. And I even found my favorite love song of all time, which was, no surprise, "Mayor of Simpleton!"
Yay me, punks. ^_^
Okay, I think I'm done blogging for the day; enjoy the tunage, Citizens...
~ me
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