Chapter 212 ~ For His Sake...

So, things entirely improved with Roboter and I. Surprisingly, after all was said and done, especially considering this, the mark of 8 weeks full of studying, lots of praying, and perhaps the longest month full of grief leading up to this.

Yesterday, summed up in one picture:

So, yes, that IS my Cross. I am officially a Daughter of the King now. Imagine my tears and thrill when Roboter congratulated me over the phone. After the longest month, the biggest encouragement is when you're surrounded by friends and loved ones when you take up that Cross. And it's not going to be easy being a Daughter--it never is when you're a Child of God. But, God is in my corner, and I shall be as best diligent as possible in my perseverance of upholding my lifelong vow of Prayer, Service and Evangelism. I'm sure there'll be some people who just won't comprehend it, and I'm sure there'll even be some people against it--perhaps even upset--with the decision I have made and the step I have taken. Yes, I'm a post-modern day nun, and the only mark I have to show it, really, is that very Cross... which right now is pinned on my uniform. [Yes, it's a pin/pendant. How cool is that?]

So, I'm still celebrating the fact that I've taken a big step in my Christian path. Whoever said punks can't be Daughters just got PWN'd...!

*sigh* I'm quite happy. These past three days have gone rather interesting but, all in all they've been the best three days [Saturday, yesterday and today] in a long while. The few that know of my being a Daughter [even though I wanna tell it to the whole freckin' world!!!] have been whimsically humored enough to share in my joy.

I can't help but be happy. Very, very happy. And I can't help but share that joy around.

And on that bombshell... until the next round,
and For His Sake...

~ me

Chapter 211 ~ Untold Joy: A letter to Roboter

Roboter... if you EVER do find this...

...where... where are you?

We haven't talked in days. It seems almost like forever, the last time I told you I loved you. But now, I don't know where you are... you won't tell me anything. I don't know what to do... because you're what stands in the way of an otherwise good week. Hell, I've been looking forward to this weekend...

Today, busy day at work. And yet everything went so well. I wish I could tell you all about it. But... no... not a single word from you.

Tomorrow... I'll be a Daughter of the King. I'll be bravely wearing my Cross of the Order. I might even take pictures. I...

I want to tell you all about this. But... I can't, because you won't let me.

This little Captain's life is at a quiet standstill. I went through so much, sacrificed as I could, to scrape time for us. And now... oh, I have time.

I HAVE TIME.

But now... I don't have you. Why...

why?

Was it something I said, something I did? Did Siren, that jerk... did he say something, did he do something? Did something happen? I don't know... I DON'T KNOW. And I can't fix whatever happened--if it can even be fixed--because you won't let me. Because I don't know.

*sigh* I don't know what to do... as this is now the one matter that brings down an otherwise joyous occasion such as tomorrow.

So, that all being said, I will put matters this way:

I am done worrying. Unless you want to see me cry, half-sickened to death just because of a good long time of silence. I have things to concern myself with, and the few friends who DO know of this, because of my being able to let them know of such... they are now the lifeline that you once were.

If you want to talk, I don't care what it's about, you have my number.

I feel better now, saying what needs to be said. Roboter, I don't know what's going on... I wish I knew. I wish you'd tell me. But since you won't... and because I've tried time and again, all in vain, to get a hold of you... then I will not press this further. Whenever you need me, you know where I am.

I'm sorry. And I love you.

~ me

Chapter 210 ~ How the hell!?

Yes, I know, I still need to put together a now-belated Thursday Tradition but, as this week has been a major thorn in my nerve... yeah. Between the fact that Sissy-Boo is no longer working, and having found out yesterday of two different yet still shocking news [which I will address, by the way], and with work being a totally chaotic situation now, I am just plain stressed out. With that comes the lack of enthusiasm for yesterday's Tradition spotlighting on Oasis, I didn't even have time to sort out the discography together at all! Sooo... yeah. Just so you all know, I will be posting the Tradition sometime this weekend, hopefully by then I should be better sorted.

First of yesterday's news to be addressed, a good Jewish friend of mine passed away a couple of weeks ago. His widow, back in December for Hanukkah, gave me a Star-of-David pin, which I proudly wear because of my Jewish friends, as well as my Jewish stepdad. This weekend however, I wear it in my friend's memory. I mean, I knew he wasn't doing very well, he'd been ill for a while but... I didn't think it was this bad. Hearing about his passing really broke my heart.

The second of yesterday's news to be addressed is, my best friend Kit is moving. To Michigan. With her boyfriend. And, don't get me wrong--I'm happy for her. But... why? Why? After not hearing from her in so long, and even during Roboter's visit, we hardly even hang out anymore. To hear from her again... at first I thought she wanted to hang out with me, which I was all for and everything. But then when I read her text... oh my God... I wanted to cry... and I still haven't had a chance to cry, because inasmuch as I want to cry, for some ungodly reason, I just can't.

Work has been hell since Sissy-Boo's 'resignation'... I have to work next Wednesday through at least Sunday 24 May. I have a very sick feeling in my gut that my Sundays may end up into the work slaughter.

Losing my two best friends to two different situations, and the recent passing of another death, and stress at work... all of a sudden I'm just not excited for my four days off anymore.

And on that... --oh hell. Never mind. I'm really not in a grand mood. Never mind about that bombshell... *sigh*

~ me

P.S. A warm welcome to my fellow roleplaying typists from Frostwind. Yes, I will get around to posting something about Frostwind at some point...

Those not quite in the loop... don't worry. You'll know.

Chapter 209 ~ And as if that wasn't enough...

Sooo... drama ensued. For one, let my little introduction be as follows...

Saturday afternoon I was asked to work yesterday morning, 5-9 A.M., which I did. Sissy-Boo was supposed to be in at 5 but, she wasn't. I didn't question though.

Now, the reality and result of that was...

I should have.

Turned out, much hell ensued after I'd left on Thursday. I should've known something worse would've gone on throughout the day--it was hell enough to begin with, and of all days it was National Day of Prayer. But, our friendly neighborhood Inspector [who's pretty cool with me, mind you] paid Store Manager Joel and Supervisor Chris a visit... and Inspector wasn't happy. Or so I heard from one.

Meanwhile Manager Rabbit had been sending orders left, right and center to Back Drive-Thru, where Sissy-Boo was taking over for me after I'd left. And, needless to say, and as I told Coworker Anne, "Rabbit broke her." Broke her spirit, broke her nerve. Between that, the stress, and the three outside the Drive-Thru... Sissy-Boo snapped.

According to Sissy-Two, she called and said she "resigned."

And, here comes the intricate piece of the matter--Sissy-Three [yes, another Sissy I've adopted] told me that Inspector had told her, and I quote, "Don't tell Sunny yet." Perhaps because... he probably knew how I was with everyone. How I would've felt a bit fragile, helpless and hurt inside for a while if I found out. And that's the state of how I've been for the better part of the day. That and stressed out, because I ended up staying a couple of hours extra. I am rather exhausted at this point.

Sooo... that's been the current state of matters on my end, work wise. I miss Sissy-Boo already, and what makes matters worse is that her phone's been turned off. She won't answer Sissy-Two or Kels' phone calls or texts, so on top of missing her I'm also worried about her. I don't know what else to do other than to prayerfully put her in God's hands now; I just hope she's okay.

*sigh* I guess some things probably should've been delayed knowing about after all. Inspector was right giving Sissy-Three that advice... she shouldn't have told me yet.

And on that bombshell... until the next round...

...meh.

~ me

Chapter 208 ~ A Slight Minor Conflict...

Well, that did it. Siren has forced my hand, so I'm giving everyone a fair warning.

If I, for the next handful of days, seem rather tense or upset, and I snap for some ungodly reason and not mean to [which, hey, it's gonna happen unfortunately], or if I even go off the handle... it's his fault. Because now, he's not only no longer a StarKnight... he's what I would consider an enemy to the Union and the Underground.

So, just... be careful with what he says or does, everyone. Because... well, remember Chapter 205? When I noted this...

Oh and... I am officially happy to say that, Siren has FINALLY realised that, there is no such thing as a second chance for him! Oh don't get me wrong--do y'all have any damn clue as to just how long it's taken for him to realise the fact of the matter that, I don't love him anymore! At all! But he sure wanted to try to throw some two cents early on last week before trying to pursuade me to consider that second chance. And I'm sure he must've thought I wasn't serious when I told him "No" at least three times... but, as I haven't heard from him since Monday afternoon, when I told him that I don't trust him with my heart anymore [which, as y'all know, is SO true], I think it's safe to say that I finally got through to him. That, as of now, has been the biggest accomplishment of the time Roboter was here, hands down, because Roboter was there to help keep my chin up through it all.

Well... wait... or was it Chapter 202? I think everyone remembers Chapter 202 [a.k.a. 'Temperance'] quite well...

In any case, I've now resorted to the StarKnight Commander to take action. Yes, Roboter has finally gotten involved with this situation as my reenforcements. Siren's caused enough risen hell, and I do believe I am much too young to have to suffer from high blood pressure simply because the ex has been causing unnecessary drama.

In fact... I based that little 'Commander' part on my Starian Union [my creations... you know, Setsuna and the gang...]; Seiya [Roboter's S.U. counterpart] is the Commander of the Union, and subject alone to Princess [or rather Empress] Setsuna. It's so interesting. *LOL* If you somewhat remember last April's post about the returning Starian Union [by that it's Chapter 112, fellow Citizens]... well, roles have changed. As well as the main team. Sooo...

Here we have the new main Team. The Starian Union's been given a proper reworking...

Core team: Team Angelos
Also known as:
- The Empress' Brigade
- The Commander's Legion--
~ Setsuna / Empress and Captain of the Starian Union
~ Sakura / Prime Minister of the Starian Union
~ Hikaru [Hikari] / StarKnight Angelos [Guardian Angel StarKnight]
~ Haruka / Guardian of new Starians
~ Ryo'oki [Okonomiyaki/Miyaki] / Guardian of the Keys of Time
~ Kaguya / Guardian of the Royal Library / Commander Seiya's Guardian
~ Seiya / Commander of the Starian Union

Scion Union [Guardian StarKnight Legion]--
~ Ki'oh / Scion Angelos *original StarKnight Angelos, gave powers to Hikaru*
~ Kaioh / Scion Druid
~ Sorata [Sora] / StarKnight Vampire *original Guardian of Royal Cemetary, commissioned Seiya as new guardian for a time but proudly resumed guardian duties after seiya was appointed commander*
~ Himeko / Scion Halo *replacing Kaguya in the Scion Union*

Canterburian Union--
~ Kotoko / Choir Librarian of the Cathedral
~ Tenshi'uta [Tenshi] / Choirmaster of the Cathedral
~ Megumi / Deaconess, future Bishop of the Anglican Chapter of the Union
~ Keisuke / Guardian of the Cathedral Library

Sooo, there y'all have it. The updated roster. Seems proper, don't you think?

This means, new storyline for the newly-redone Union. I am rather excited for this.

Maybe that will be what I need to keep my mind intact throughout this new little, ahem, crisis...

And on THAT bombshell, until the next round...

~ me

The Thursday Tradition #6!

Welcome [back] to the 90's!! Yep, that's the theme of this month's all four Thursday Traditions. And it kicks off today with Pearl Jam--whom, I'll admit, I wasn't really a big fan of much. But... they've grown on me now! [I even have a mix c.d. of 19 tracks of awesomeness to show for it!] So, they're probably the one grunge band that I won't tire of. And, they're still going.

That said, 10 of the proper musical gems by Eddie Vedder and the guys, Pearl Jam.

~ "Evenflow"


~ "Jeremy"


~ "Go"


~ "Daughter"


~ "Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town"


~ "Corduroy"


~ "Hail Hail"


~ "Given To Fly"


~ "Wish List" *Song of the Week*


~ "World-Wide Suicide"


And there y'all have it--10 good tunes from Seattle's finest, Pearl Jam!

Enjoy the noise ~ next week it's all about Oasis, and the Random 20 returns in full force with this band whose music helped me survive middle school! This promises to be a lot of fun, so tune in next week for some of Manchester's finest!

And on that bombshell... until the next round...

~ me

Chapter 207 ~ Survival of the Dandiest

Oh yes... I am in a dandy, whimsical little mood. Especially as it's not helping much that the darn ex-boyfriend that is Siren is actually starting to piss me the ish off. For some of y'all on my AIM, seeing the status Happy-go-lucky in love..., well Siren decided to disrupt my workday and text me, of all things,

so you like me now whats up with you on aim

Yes, I refuse to edit any of that jerk's damn typos. I so refuse to do it.

It seems rather pathetic that, in my opinion, he just does not get it! At the moment I have to wonder, is he just *that* dense?

*sigh* There. Much better, I had to get that out of my system. Really.

And on THAT bombshell... Until the next round...

~ me