Chapter 110: More Battling With the Beloved iPod...

So I'm fighting and scathing through my old Fileden files and, found me some classics that I'd long since forgotten, that should be brought back into my musical landscape and, hence, introduced to my iPod. Like "Video 586" and "Don't Do It" by New Order, "Shiny Happy People" by R.E.M., and "Suedehead" and "The Last of the Famous International Playboys" by Morrissey.

I can't wait for this iPod to be fantabulously updated. I really can't.

Rediscovering some stuff I haven't heard since... gosh, last year at some point, it feels amazing. Like uncovering something of the past. Something that's been a part of me for a while. In this case, some of my New Order remixes that I downloaded last year. Last freckin' year. And I haven't heard them in almost that long.

-_-'

I can't wait for this iPod to be fantabulously updated.

So, I'm gonna fight with this crazy thing, and until the next round, get yourself some quality noise that you miss, if you haven't heard them in so long.

Quality advice from the person living it!

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 109: Life brings Chaos, and with it, Angels.

For one, can I apologize for having not posted in a few days? For the record, I'm sick. Yes, the StarKnight Captain has fallen under the weather as of mid-morning Friday, and it was bad [can we say, bad head cold from hell?]. As a result I went home early yesterday after working only three hours, not only because of employee surplus, but also because I wasn't feeling fantastic and the Managers felt I should be put out of my misery for the day. Siren [who stayed over at my apartment for a couple of days] picked me up from work, and for about 6 hours I was practically bedridden [not by force--but by MY OWN CHOICE] until he got me up and out for Lunch [Subway anyone?]. So the hero of the weekend is dear Siren. <3

Meanwhile, the treat of the weekend happens to be this morning, when I was at Church. Padre mentioned a bit about the Prayer Shawl Ministry, and there were a few Shawls out on the Altar Rail. A note about this ministry - the Shawlmakers make Shawls anonymously, and are given to people who are in need of one. Well, I felt I could use one, and so I mentioned it to Nana after the Service, who then gave me the okay to go to the Sacristy to pick one out. I picked out this pretty red-and-pink Shawl and, after thanking Nana, went back to the Choir Room to put my stuff and Cassock/Cotta away. And that was when Steffi [my best friend Soprano in the Choir] cheered with glee, "You adopted it!" I looked at her like, "Huh?"

It turns out, Steffi herself is one of the Shawlmakers, and the one I picked out was the one she made!

So much for anonymity. *LOL* *hugs Prayer Shawl*

Terry [my best friend Alto in the Choir, and Steffi's best friend since for ever] was quite thrilled about the news as Steffi herself placed the Shawl over my shoulders. It was then that I realized that, I have truly found myself some of the most wonderful friends that God could place me with.

There are times when I'm thankful that I became an Episcopalian a year and a half ago. Today is definitely one of them.

I promise I'll try to post more random odd bits as life progresses and my health speedily improves. First, a few quick Mille Grazie's...

--for Karen, who went through the trouble of getting me the meds on Friday
--for Manager Wendy, who sent Karen in the first place
--for Ma [Manager JoAnne], who felt it best that I went home early yesterday to get more rest and recover,
--for Joel [Store Manager], who understood that his "4th daughter" wasn't feeling all too good -_-'
--for Siren, who went out of his way to make sure I got my rest and recovered, especially yesterday
--for Steffi, who knit the Prayer Shawl
--for everyone, who's kept me in kind thoughts and prayers as I swiftly recover in spite of the hell of medications and 11 P.M. and 3 A.M. wake-up interruptions simply to take the meds

This illness shall pass. I will rise above it.

Until the next round...

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 108: Video Killed the Radio Star...?

Alright. The rules are--
1. Put iTunes on Shuffle.
2. Fill in the answers with the song titles that appear.
3. No exceptions.
4. Have fun!

And here we go...

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
"Dead Man's Party" - Oingo Boingo

[Really, that wouldn't be quite what I'd say...]

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
"Winter" - Stockholm Monsters

[...huh?]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Pacific State" - 808 State

[Why do I have a bad feeling this just doesn't add up?]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Christf-ck" - :wumpscut:

[...no comment.]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"Bela Lugosi's Dead" - Bauhaus

[Sh-t. Now I'm scared stupid. This isn't fun at all.]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Pure Energy" - Information Society

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Love Will Tear Us Apart" - Joy Division

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
"Electricity" - OMD

[No seriously, why am I doing this?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
"Bizarre Love Triangle" - New Order

WHAT IS YOUR BEST MEMORY?
"Otis" - The Durutti Column

WHAT IS YOUR WORST MEMORY?
"Computerwelt" - Kraftwerk

WHAT IS 2+2?
"All Day" - Ministry

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
"All Night Long" - Peter Murphy

[Now that's ironic.]

WHAT IS YOUR BREAKUP SONG?
"Cuts You Up" - Peter Murphy

[...actually, I kinda agree.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"How Soon Is Now?" - The Smiths

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"The Metro" - Berlin

[--wait, huh!?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Ceremony" - New Order

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Russian Roulette" - Lords of the New Church

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Don't Go" - Yazoo

[...you sure about that?]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Rock the Casbah" - The Clash

[...actually, that might not be a bad idea! *LOL*]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"The Back of Love" - Echo and the Bunnymen

[WTF!?]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Put Your Head Inside the Puppet Head" - They Might Be Giants

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
"Pretty In Pink" - The Psychedelic Furs

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
"Transmission" - Joy Division

HOWS LIFE?
"I Want Candy" - Bow Wow Wow

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
"Video Killed the Radio Star" - Buggles



...damn, that was... *shakes her head*

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 107: Let There Always Be Neverending Light.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with Sandra and the Crew Trainers/Manager Trainees. There's a lot to accomplish in this meeting. I can only hope to hang in there, because people count on me to hang on in there, to be there for them, for their sake, as their "Sunshine."

I don't really have a "Sunshine" of my own. I don't know who to call my own ray of "Sunshine," the light that keeps me standing.

For now, I can only rise above.



Let there always be neverending light.

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 106: Questioning...

Sometimes, I have to wonder, what hope exists for someone who lives in a small town and misses the one she loves who's so far away... who wishes she was closer to his town. Problem is... well...

how could she leave the one town she'd grown to love?

*sigh* I'm wondering how on earth I got stuck in this problem.



There's gotta be more to life than questioning love, I swear.

Until the next round,

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 105: Jesus Christ Is Risen Today--ALLELUIA!!

Alleluia, Christ is risen!!
The Lord is risen indeed, ALLELUIA!!
Many Easter Cheers to you Underground readers today. Trust me when I say that, this will be the earliest in another 200-some-odd years, and the last time it was the VERY EARLIEST [March 22] was in 18??, and even THAT won't happen again for another 200-some-odd years! So yes, this Easter is as early as it's gonna get, folks!

And, starting this year I'm recelebrating Easter Week, as I used to back in the Roman Catholic Church, but it'll be with a nice, new twist. This week, starting with tonight, I'm going to do something a bit, er, different. In fact, this morning I did that already--I recolored the red in my hair THIS MORNING and still made it to Choir practice on time! This year also starts a new tradition for me--getting Choirmaster Peter a cute plushie toy. Peter <3's plushies--or, quoting him, "I love fuzzies!" ^_^ He's so adorable, that Choirmaster. And, did I ever say he is just simply fantabulous? He's a composer, and a brilliant one at that!! I could go on and on about him, but, being that I'm more alongside trying to finish this entry and actually get some sleep [work tomorrow *sigh*] I won't go on and on about him. Though really, I wish I could. *shrug*

Meanwhile, Siren's visit was simply wonderful, however short. He arrived in town at around 9:30 Friday night, had to head out at 6 last night to head home for Easter. I miss him already, but at least we're still talking and stuff, so it's all good. It was fantabulous, and hopefully he'll get to stop by again soon!

I'll stop here for the moment--according to my clock it's 9:00 P.M., and that means I have to be up in 7 hours. Time to get the uniform together...



Alleluia, Christ is risen!!
The Lord is risen indeed, ALLELUIA!!
~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 104: Can You Feel the Pulse?

Lately, I've been fighting with and reconstructing this one particular playlist on my iPod aptly titled Pulse. And at the moment I'm plotting to return some attention to one album in particular that, thanks to my happy singlehood for some odd reason, is giving me a good reason to feel like a sex goddess.

The album is "Mezzanine." The group is Massive Attack.

1] Angel
2] Risingson
3] Teardrop [with Liz Fraser of the Cocteau Twins]
4] Inertia Creeps
5] Exchange
6] Disolved Girl
7] Man Next Door
8] Black Milk [with Liz Fraser of the Cocteau Twins]
9] Mezzanine
10] Group Four
11] [Exchange]

Now, seriously, if you were to be in my situation [hello, IT girl, anyone?], you'd need a good soundtrack. I'm adding the entire damn album to this. Because yes, it's that good. And considering that I've got a helluva lot to do and a whole lot even more going on, chances are, I'd better get a good soundtrack for this.

Let's face it, I've got an interesting mix of electro and indie. And as it's capable of making me dance, it rightly deserves to be in my iPod.

So, can you feel the Pulse? I know I do.

Until the next round...

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 103: The Music Roster Post, Part 2 - From WSUR... it's the Top 10!

Thank God for the iPod, StarMixes and music recommendations from friends. It's the return of WSUR--Starian Union Radio!

Every Tuesday I'll be posting the Top 10 songs from what-all I've been listening to. Sounds like a plan, right? If so, then on that note it's time for a few Top-10 Charts to be updated, as well as new Charts to be created...!

The Top 10 New Order Tracks--
1] "Krafty" [Riton Re-Rub]
2] "Round & Round" [12" extended mix]
3] "Mesh"
4] "Procession"
5] "Blue Monday" [Warren Lapham mix]
6] "Turn the Heater On"
7] "Vanishing Point"
8] "Paradise"
9] "Shellshock" [12" extended mix]
10] "Turn"

The Top 10 Joy Division Tracks--
1] "Transmission"
2] "She's Lost Control"
3] "Shadowplay"
4] "No Love Lost" [Warsaw version]
5] "The Sound of Music" [Peel Session]
6] "Love Will Tear Us Apart" [1980 single]
7] "Atmosphere"
8] "Komakino"
9] "Warsaw" [from An Ideal For Living]
10] "Heart and Soul"

The Top 10 Smiths Tracks *new chart!*--
1] "The Queen Is Dead"
2] "Still Ill" [Peel Session]
3] "Rubber Ring"
4] "Pretty Girls Make Graves"
5] "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out"
6] "Handsome Devil" [Peel Session]
7] "William, It Was Really Nothing"
8] "How Soon Is Now?"
9] "Ask"
10] "Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others"

The Top 10 Kraftwerk Tracks *new chart!*--
1] "Nummern/Computerwelt 2" [Numbers/Computer World 2]
2] "Trans-Europe Express" [12" full version]
3] "Autobahn" [from The Mix]
4] "Expo 2000" [UR Infiltrated Mix]
5] "Tour de France 2007"
6] "Aero Dynamik" [Kling Klang Dynamix]
7] "Die Roboter"
8] "Neon Lights"
9] "Europe Endless"
10] "Ohm Sweet Ohm"

The Top 10 Old-School Tracks--
1] "Life's What You Make It" - Talk Talk
2] "Heaven" - The Psychadelic Furs
3] "Marcia Baila" - Les Rita Mitsouko
4] "The Back of Love" - Echo and the Bunnymen
5] "Video Killed the Radio Star" - Buggles
6] "Whip It" - Devo
7] "People Are People" - Depeche Mode
8] "Kiss Them For Me" - Siouxsie and the Banshees
9] "Oh L'Amour" - Erasure
10] "Getting Away With It" - Electronic

The Top 10 Somewhere-Indie Tracks *new chart!*--
1] "Skull" - Sabadoh
2] "Teardrop" - Massive Attack
3] "Australia" [Peter Bjorn and John remix] - The Shins
4] "My Moon My Man" - Feist
5] "Lost In The Supermarket" - The Clash
6] "Cheapskate" - Supergrass
7] "April Fools" - Rufus Wainwright
8] "Little Thoughts" - Bloc Party
9] "Lights" - The Editors
10] "Jigsaw Falling Into Place" - Radiohead

...and there you have it!! :-) The latest from Starian Union Radio!!

Until the next round... cheers! <3

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 103: The Music Roster Post, Part 1 - Spinner's Points of View... musically.

Hee, I can't believe I stumbled onto this:

Spinner.com - 20 Meanest Love Songs.

For those NOT interested in reading about all 20 of 'em [unlike myself--I'm such a strange history nut], here's the list...

20] "Go Your Own Way" - Fleetwood Mac
19] "Under My Thumb" - The Rolling Stones
18] "Ex-Factor" - Lauren Hill
17] "The One I Love" - R.E.M.
16] "I'm Looking Through You" - The Beatles
15] "Hit 'Em Up Style [Oops!]" - Blu Cantrell
14] "I Want You" - Elvis Costello
13] "Two Out Of Three Ain't Bad" - Meat Loaf
12] "Possession" - Sarah McLachlan
11] "Caroline No" - The Beach Boys
10] "Tunnel Of Love" - Bruce Springsteen
9] "Cry Me A River" - Justin Timberlake
8] "These Boots Are Made For Walkin'" - Nancy Sinatra
7] "Idiot Wind" - Bob Dylan
6] "Dry" - PJ Harvey
5] "You're So Vain" - Carly Simon
4] "Unhappy Birthday" - The Smiths
3] "You Oughta Know" - Alanis Morissette
2] "By The Time I Get To Phoenix" - Glen Campbell
1] "Smile" - Lily Allen

The 25 Most Exquisitely Sad Songs In The Whole World.

...and for those who are too lazy and rather read the list and not the stories...

25] "The River" - Bruce Springsteen
24] "Nothing Compares 2 U" - Sinead O'Connor
23] "No Surprises" - Radiohead
22] "A Change Is Gonna Come" - Sam Cooke
21] "Space Oddity" - David Bowie
20] "That's The Way I've Always Heard It Should Be" - Carly Simon
19] "Lost Cause" - Beck
18] "I've Gotta Get A Message To You" - The Bee Gees
17] "Back To Black" - Amy Winehouse
16] "Shilo" - Neil Diamond
15] "My Mom" - Chocolate Genius
14] "Anyone Who Had A Heart" - Dionne Warwick
13] "Naked As We Came" - Iron & Wine
12] "In The Wee Small Hours Of The Morning" - Frank Sinatra
11] "Brick" - Ben Folds Five
10] "In The Real World" - Roy Orbison
9] "Concrete Angel" - Martina McBride
8] "Dance With My Father" - Luther Vandross
7] "Hallelujah" - Jeff Buckley
6] "He Stopped Loving Her Today" - George Jones
5] "I Know It's Over" - The Smiths
4] "Hurt" - Johnny Cash
3] "Eleanor Rigby" - The Beatles
2] "Gloomy Sunday" - Billie Holiday
1] "Chicken Wire" - Pernice Brothers

Now, if you're tired of their say-so, it's time for the latest in WSUR, the official radio of the Starian Union and the StarKnight Chronicles...

Chapter 102: Life's What You Make It, Part Two.

If you're gonna live life to the fullest, go for it.

In this case, today.



So today's Saint Patrick's Day. Except the Roman Catholics celebrated it on Saturday and the Anglicans, to quote Doc from NOOL, cancelled it completely. All I can do is say, who cares!? So it's Holy Week. So!? I grew up raised on 17 March being Saint Patrick's Day. Now celebrating this day during Holy Week isn't a sin, right? And since when will people want to constitute it as such?

Let's face it--17 March is the day I celebrate 12.5% of my bloodline. 'Nuff said, end of.

In other interesting news, Antenna's back in the picture. Yup, my friend Antenna and I talked on the phone for about an hour yesterday, and I'm so glad he called too. ^_^ It was worth the five hours of sleep. *LOL*

And, for one, I. Am. Sore! from Saturday night/early Sunday morning's 80's retro-cover-fest that was the A+ Team's concert at Caffe da Vinci. Awesome awesome AWESOME show all around. They did mainstream stuff but a few underground covers too. Lots of fun--I can't wait until they stop by again!! *squee!* But otherwise, that's probably the only thing worth btiching about--especially since I gotta clean up the apartment a bit before Siren visits this weekend.

Oh and, speaking of btiching, I have to work Friday--and I had ALREADY requested Friday off. Which means I'll have to miss Good Friday. Maybe I should just starve myself during my time at work? O.o 'Cause on Good Friday, if I have to work, it's probably not worth eating. Selfish? Maybe, but I did request Friday off. But since I have to work, cheerful I might be, but I wouldn't eat even if they were to want to shove food down my throat!! This might be my actual fasting day for once.

Hey, you can try to take the girl away from the Church, but you can't take the Church away from the girl.

Until the next round...

~ 'Sunshine'

Chapter 101: Life's What You Make It, Part 1.

There's this feeling that, you're just the most awesome woman in the entire world.

Tonight, that's exactly how I'm feeling. No joke.

Besides the fact that there's a concert going on in about an hour [80's covers, anyone??], Siren's visiting me next weekend. And Revolver--woohoo! he's planning to stay over at my apartment sometime so we can catch up. I haven't seen Revolver--no, I haven't seen him or Siren in damn near for-ev-er.

At the moment Siren's recovering from the flu, he's got finals this week [go Siren!] so that's why he won't be over until next weekend. And that was also why I hadn't heard from him in 10 or 11 days. And as he was sick from the flu, and he's got lots of studying and resting to do, do I blame him? I don't think so.

Revolver-chan meanwhile, sheesh. I remember when I used to hang out at where he used to work [a tattoo parlor] on Tuesday nights, watching "House." That, of course, was before the car died. I haven't seen him in at least a year now. Same with Siren. And to see those two again... *squeeeeeeeeeee!* do any of y'all know just how much this makes my day, big time?

So I'm kinda looking back at this past week, up to now, and it's amusing when I think about it: I've got guys queueing up for me all along. One's visiting next weekend, another's staying over soon [we're not sure when], and the one who's slightly hurt [Hobbes, my good buddy] is still always gonna be my buddy. So yeah, I guess I do have guys in this world who like me after all. Fantabulous!

Meanwhile, tonight at Caffe da Vinci it's the A-Team taking the stage. They're an 80's cover band and, as I'm a huge fan of 80's music but have never seen 'em live, I am SOOO going. Hmm... who knows? Maybe they'll play some New Order or something that I know. Hopefully.

All in all, life gets better. I have my headaches, and I move on.

And I absolutely love it!

Until the next round, cheers! <3

Chapter 100: The Time Between Meeting and Finally Leaving Is Sometimes Called Falling In Love.

...okay, so it seems that Cupid is definitely worse than on my last nerve. It turns out that there's not one but TWO guys still crushing on me. And to be honest... well... there's one that I know of [Steven--codenamed Siren] and then there's the other that I don't know of, whch I found out about today [Daniel--not the one codenamed Rabbit but the one codenamed Hobbes]. Which means now I'm in a brand effin' new crisis. And I hate crises. I really do.

So now, inasmuch as Cupid rhymes with stupid and I'm over the break-up with Casey, it's become a brand new dilemma that I wish I wasn't stuck in. And that means, well, lately... hell...

Just when I was thinking of Siren, now Hobbes is thinking of me again too. But... I don't know. And to make the situation even worse, I haven't heard from Siren in at least a week. Now not only does that make me worry, but that also makes me wonder if it's worth falling for Siren. And the worst part is, as much as Hobbes is my friend, I can't really tell him that I don't see him much outside of as a friend. [In fact, Hobbes is one of my exes, I joke you not!]

So basically, it's a Catch-22. I hate Catch-22's.

*sigh* Why... why me? Couldn't I just be some normal girl with a wonderful boyfriend and be happy, instead of having all this pointlessly excessive drama? But nooo--Cupid had to be jealous of how humble and sweet this punk girl is, and simply make life hell because of it. It just... it just isn't right, you know?

I swear, I don't know where it all went wrong.

In all honesty, if I could at least tell Siren how I feel--just the simple fact that, I've denied even to MYSELF that I actually liked him [and still do] and now I feel like a total jerk for it--would... well... would it change anything? And while I don't want to hurt anyone in the end [especially after all the tears I'd been through...! -_-' meh.], I realized that, there's two hearts that I did hurt, and one of them I actually did like. And I really want to make up for this.

I really do want to make up for lost time.

*sigh* Right now I can only hope to God above that, Siren understands this. I'm really hoping against hope right now.



And Siren, if you're reading this, if ever in any way I'd hurt you in the past, I'm sorry. And I hope you're alright.



*sigh* From a week of miserable P.M.S., to a break-up, now trying to set things right. Just one crisis to another.

All of a sudden I'm afraid this isn't going to go very well.

Until the next round, damnit! where's my PANIC button!? *facepalm*