...grr. Okay, for the moment, NOW I can hate Siren. He had to open his mouth and mention... ehm... I'll just codename her What's-Her-Face [because I prefer codenames in situations like these, 'nuff said]. Yes, he *had* to mention his escort to the wedding this past weekend. *sigh* Why oh why...
Really, why did he have to mention something that, really, would upset me after all the mess I went through? Sure, Faith saved my butt and sanity big time but, when someone--especially someone I actually LOVED--goes a bit into the nerves with something that should've happened... it kinda brings me back. To the break-up.
Yes, Underground Citizens. I'm back in my stupid state of self-ill-temper at myself for the fact of the matter that, hey! it's all my effin' fault that Siren broke up with me in the first place for OPENING MY DAMN MOUTH!!
*sigh* Sorry. I'm just... I'm just really, really peeved right now.
Yes, I know, I shouldn't care about it. And really, I need to get this out of my system but, in the back of my mind it's like, he either isn't listening or he just doesn't care. And really, I shouldn't care so much but... it's hard to.
It's hard to really want to work things out when, well... everyone kinda knows about me and Roboter. And the fact that he's been there for me for... well... how long now...
Checking on Facebook now... I still remember...
OH YEAH!! it was October...!? Wow.
So Roboter and I have been talking over every single thing and the kitchen sink since we exchanged lyrics to "Tour de France '03" back on 19 October of last year, on each other's Facebook Walls. But now we talk on the phone just about every night over our days. Our chaotic jobs. And our past bouts with Cupid. We're just waiting for the day...
*sigh* Yeah, we're just waiting for the day when distance won't be so much of a problem anymore.
For now, I only want this pointless war between exes to be over with. I don't want to hear anymore about the wedding, or about What's-Her-Face. I just want Siren and I to start over again.
I JUST WANT MY FRIEND BACK!!
*whew* There. Now that I got that out of my system... I can only hope for the best and brace myself for the worst.
And that being, how in the world am I going to start again if Siren opens his mouth about the wedding that I wasn't even there for? Because talking about that's going to basically upset the heck out of me. Unfreckin'fair. I do hope I get the friend I once had in him back. As for the boyfriend part, that's gonna take a helluva lot of time... :-\
And now, on a much more hysterical note...!
Yes, Ed from Radiohead dancing. Funniest thing I've seen all day. That with Thom's reaction. PRICELESS!
Full clip version [and from the great Thumbs Down webcast Radiohead made on 9 November 2007]:
And on that note, I think I've got one heart to play Florence Nightingale to [Roboter hasn't been doing too great lately] and a friend to try to get back somehow.
Until the next round...
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