Yup, I'll be resuming the musicality of the Underground here. It'll be the return of the music for this crazy place. :-)
Just as soon as I learn the proper ropes to share my musical whim with you folks...
29 June 2008
Chapter 152 ~ ...wait, so I'm not back to work until WEDNESDAY!?
And then I forgot--three of our employees are going to be out of town all this week. *facepalm*
Sissy-Too and her daughter will be heading to Indiana to bury her dad's ashes. :-( She was one of the two friends of mine these past three months who'd lost a Dad. I still vaguely remember the morning when her mom called the Store Manager and then her, to let her know about the father's passing. I found Sissy crying in the Manager's Office. And do I blame her? Absolutely not! She's since been doing a lot better, but this week will be her week of closure, and I do hope that she and her daughter find peace in this time. I really, really do.
Meanwhile Sissy-Boo will be out of town with her family, also heading out of town for a vacation. She herself deserves a bit of a proper vacation of sorts. And I'll be keeping her family, as well as Sissy-Too's family, in my kind thoughts and prayers this week, particularly for Travel Mercies.
Store Manager Joel gave me the okay yesterday to dress up for Friday--as well as whenever there's a holiday worth celebrating. *yay!!* So, as far as the list goes here's what I've compiled for holidays worth dressing up for [in chronological order]...
Fixed Dates throughout the Year ~
1 January - New Year's Day
15 January - Martin Luther King Jr.'s Birthday
21 January - Martyrdom of Saint Agnes [not sure how to celebrate it yet though]
14 February - Martyrdom of Saint Valentine
17 March - Feast of Saint Patrick [Bishop]
20 March? - First Day of Spring
1 April - April Fools' Day
22 April? - Earth Day
1 May - Mayday!!
21 June - Summer Solstice
4 July - Independence Day
20 August - Ralf from Kraftwerk's Birthday #62!!
2 September [this year] - Labor Day
21 September? - Autumnal Equinox
29 September - Michaelmas ~ Feast of Saints Michael, Gabriel and Raphael [Archangels]
2 October - Feast of All Guardian Angels
4 October? - ...er, my Birthday?
28 October - Stephen from New Order's Birthday #51!!
31 October - Halloween
1 November - All Saints' Day
20 December - Winter Solstice
31 December - New Year's Eve
Movable dates throughout the years to celebrate ~
- Ash Wednesday
- Easter Sunday [dress-up day traditionally is Easter Vigil Saturday]
- Stetson University Homecoming
- Holocaust Remembrance Day
- Friendship Day [August]
- DeLand High School Homecoming
- High Holy Days [Jewish Holidays]
- Hanukkah [Jewish Holiday]
Seasons celebrated in some form or fashion during the year ~
- Lent [purple hair?]
- Christmastide
...whew! boy, do I have a lot to celebrate or what!?
~ me
Sissy-Too and her daughter will be heading to Indiana to bury her dad's ashes. :-( She was one of the two friends of mine these past three months who'd lost a Dad. I still vaguely remember the morning when her mom called the Store Manager and then her, to let her know about the father's passing. I found Sissy crying in the Manager's Office. And do I blame her? Absolutely not! She's since been doing a lot better, but this week will be her week of closure, and I do hope that she and her daughter find peace in this time. I really, really do.
Meanwhile Sissy-Boo will be out of town with her family, also heading out of town for a vacation. She herself deserves a bit of a proper vacation of sorts. And I'll be keeping her family, as well as Sissy-Too's family, in my kind thoughts and prayers this week, particularly for Travel Mercies.
Store Manager Joel gave me the okay yesterday to dress up for Friday--as well as whenever there's a holiday worth celebrating. *yay!!* So, as far as the list goes here's what I've compiled for holidays worth dressing up for [in chronological order]...
Fixed Dates throughout the Year ~
1 January - New Year's Day
15 January - Martin Luther King Jr.'s Birthday
21 January - Martyrdom of Saint Agnes [not sure how to celebrate it yet though]
14 February - Martyrdom of Saint Valentine
17 March - Feast of Saint Patrick [Bishop]
20 March? - First Day of Spring
1 April - April Fools' Day
22 April? - Earth Day
1 May - Mayday!!
21 June - Summer Solstice
4 July - Independence Day
20 August - Ralf from Kraftwerk's Birthday #62!!
2 September [this year] - Labor Day
21 September? - Autumnal Equinox
29 September - Michaelmas ~ Feast of Saints Michael, Gabriel and Raphael [Archangels]
2 October - Feast of All Guardian Angels
4 October? - ...er, my Birthday?
28 October - Stephen from New Order's Birthday #51!!
31 October - Halloween
1 November - All Saints' Day
20 December - Winter Solstice
31 December - New Year's Eve
Movable dates throughout the years to celebrate ~
- Ash Wednesday
- Easter Sunday [dress-up day traditionally is Easter Vigil Saturday]
- Stetson University Homecoming
- Holocaust Remembrance Day
- Friendship Day [August]
- DeLand High School Homecoming
- High Holy Days [Jewish Holidays]
- Hanukkah [Jewish Holiday]
Seasons celebrated in some form or fashion during the year ~
- Lent [purple hair?]
- Christmastide
...whew! boy, do I have a lot to celebrate or what!?
~ me
28 June 2008
Chapter 151 ~ Double Take? [Two Cemetery Excursions, 33 Images]
Day of Excursion:
- Friday 28 June 2008 [yesterday]
Places of Excursion:
- Main Street Cemetery, Daytona Beach
- Oakdale Cemetery, DeLand
~ Main Street - Daytona Beach
~ Oakdale, DeLand
...you know, I'm a bit better off having done both of 'em during the day. They'd probably turn out a bit better. Ah well. :-\
- Friday 28 June 2008 [yesterday]
Places of Excursion:
- Main Street Cemetery, Daytona Beach
- Oakdale Cemetery, DeLand
~ Main Street - Daytona Beach
~ Oakdale, DeLand
...you know, I'm a bit better off having done both of 'em during the day. They'd probably turn out a bit better. Ah well. :-\
Chapter 150 ~ ...okay, I know I was supposed to keep a week-long silence but...
Not when I got this in an e-mail from my [Step]Mom. And I can't believe I didn't even keep this in mind. I'll be printing this out and keeping it with me for a long time to come...
In other news, Thursday night out was insane, ran into a friend of mine. Survived 6 shots and still ruled the dance floor. Even ran into my two friends Mandie and Lizzy, and the three of us were surviving getting hit on by... of all things...
football coaches?
Yes, you can cue your proper "WTF!?" here.
The misadventured well into Friday morning, which included us three gals venturing with the guys to Brickhouse Bar. Unfortunately, there was no such thing as a dance floor [which seriously pissed me off 'cause the guys begged us to tag along with them, fcukers *deathglare*], but there was a decent-looking guy to talk to. And, he wore a Sisters of Mercy shirt, so that meant that HEY! this goth-punk gal was gonna be alright. Mandie and Lizzy meanwhile tried to keep the guys at bay [they pretended to be lesbians--smart.thinking.you.two!!] and, some of the other guys were like, "So you want another drink, Sunshine?" I'm like, No, I survived 6 shots back at the P-Lounge and I'm not gonna get trashed, thankyouverymuch! and resumed conversation with Roy. Unfortunately he lives in Boca Raton [er, road trip, anyone?], but we both had a wonderful conversation about music, music, VNV Nation [he'd never heard my fave VNV tune "Perpetual" until I brought out the 'Pod!], The Smiths [he got envious for a moment that I got to see Morrissey live last July], and more music.
At about quarter past 2 the guys were up for IHOP, and we kinda faked like, "Yeah, we'll see you guys there!!" Heh, I.don't.think.so. Mandie and Lizzy took me home, and then I didn't quite fully wake up until, er, 11 yesterday morning? In any case, yesterday I did a double-Cemetery Excursion, first to Main Street in Daytona, then to Oakdale back in town. What really kinda sucked was that, unlike the Main Street Revisited, Oakdale Revisited didn't turn out as good as I hoped, picture-wise. A lot of pictures turned out rather, er, crappy. Which meant that, you know, maybe I should've used the flash that came with the camera after all...
Anywho, the pics will be up on Chapter 151, up next. :-)
In other news, Thursday night out was insane, ran into a friend of mine. Survived 6 shots and still ruled the dance floor. Even ran into my two friends Mandie and Lizzy, and the three of us were surviving getting hit on by... of all things...
football coaches?
Yes, you can cue your proper "WTF!?" here.
The misadventured well into Friday morning, which included us three gals venturing with the guys to Brickhouse Bar. Unfortunately, there was no such thing as a dance floor [which seriously pissed me off 'cause the guys begged us to tag along with them, fcukers *deathglare*], but there was a decent-looking guy to talk to. And, he wore a Sisters of Mercy shirt, so that meant that HEY! this goth-punk gal was gonna be alright. Mandie and Lizzy meanwhile tried to keep the guys at bay [they pretended to be lesbians--smart.thinking.you.two!!] and, some of the other guys were like, "So you want another drink, Sunshine?" I'm like, No, I survived 6 shots back at the P-Lounge and I'm not gonna get trashed, thankyouverymuch! and resumed conversation with Roy. Unfortunately he lives in Boca Raton [er, road trip, anyone?], but we both had a wonderful conversation about music, music, VNV Nation [he'd never heard my fave VNV tune "Perpetual" until I brought out the 'Pod!], The Smiths [he got envious for a moment that I got to see Morrissey live last July], and more music.
At about quarter past 2 the guys were up for IHOP, and we kinda faked like, "Yeah, we'll see you guys there!!" Heh, I.don't.think.so. Mandie and Lizzy took me home, and then I didn't quite fully wake up until, er, 11 yesterday morning? In any case, yesterday I did a double-Cemetery Excursion, first to Main Street in Daytona, then to Oakdale back in town. What really kinda sucked was that, unlike the Main Street Revisited, Oakdale Revisited didn't turn out as good as I hoped, picture-wise. A lot of pictures turned out rather, er, crappy. Which meant that, you know, maybe I should've used the flash that came with the camera after all...
Anywho, the pics will be up on Chapter 151, up next. :-)
26 June 2008
Chapter 149 ~ A Proper Silence Is Due.
This is only a proper penance, that this blog shouldn't see or hear from me [yes, Citizens, nothing until next week's Top 20 WSUR] for at least the next week or so. And that's because, well, it's my fault.
Once again I unjustly wronged someone with my brash words and thoughts, and I didn't think proper when all this time I should've. I'd gladly apologize but, I'm scared that he will not accept it, simply because of the drama as of recently that I unjustly started.
So, this is a proper apology, and a proper penance--simply to silence myself as much as possible. I can't risk losing someone I love to my pride, anger and bitterness.
Yes, I'm broadcasting it to the world: I've wronged someone I love, and I can't get to forgiving myself for it simply because I can't be forgiven. And I know I'll get myself back on proper ground but... I don't know anymore.
After much thought I have decided, furthering my penance, to simply reconsider the four-day minor vacation I have. I'll give myself that week to think it over, and update you Citizen-folk next Thursday.
Until then, the next round...
Once again I unjustly wronged someone with my brash words and thoughts, and I didn't think proper when all this time I should've. I'd gladly apologize but, I'm scared that he will not accept it, simply because of the drama as of recently that I unjustly started.
So, this is a proper apology, and a proper penance--simply to silence myself as much as possible. I can't risk losing someone I love to my pride, anger and bitterness.
Yes, I'm broadcasting it to the world: I've wronged someone I love, and I can't get to forgiving myself for it simply because I can't be forgiven. And I know I'll get myself back on proper ground but... I don't know anymore.
After much thought I have decided, furthering my penance, to simply reconsider the four-day minor vacation I have. I'll give myself that week to think it over, and update you Citizen-folk next Thursday.
Until then, the next round...
Chapter 148 ~ Happy Thursday!: the Top 20 WSUR, and Other Pointless Commentary
Yup, back on schedule. Especially with what happened with the funeral last Thursday and what-not. It seems that, by a long-shot, Kraftwerk's the group of the week again with God only knows HOW MANY FRECKIN' SONGS I've listened to of theirs! And that's gone crazy-different from the actual Top-20 itself!! Accordingly, my top 5 bands this past week are as follows *and thanks to Last.fm for ALL CHARTS INVOLVED in this blog, as well as for the last-songs-played chart at the top of this blog!* ~
1] Kraftwerk
2] New Order
3] The Smiths
4] Depeche Mode
5] Clay Aiken
And with that, on with the Starian Union Radio Top 20!
1] "Lover All Alone" - Clay Aiken
2] "The Perfect Kiss" [full 12" version] - New Order
3] "Blasphemous Rumours" - Depeche Mode
4] "Getting Away With It" - Electronic
5] "Life's What You Make It" - Talk Talk
6] "Primitive Notion" - New Order
7] "Just Can't Get Enough" - Depeche Mode
8] "Hello It's Me" - Todd Rundgren
9] "Another Morning Stoner" - ...And You Will Know Us by the Trail of Dead
10] "Whip It" - Devo
11] "Cellphone's Dead" - Beck
12] "How Soon Is Now?" - The Smiths
13] "99 Red Balloons" - Nena
14] "Driver 8" - R.E.M.
15] "Oh L'Amour" - Erasure
16] "Pretty Girls Make Graves" - The Smiths
17] "NWA" - The Terrible Sea
18] "Heaven" - The Psychedelic Furs
19] "Angel Dust" - New Order
20] "Down the Line" - Jose Gonzalez
Alright, that done, the usual short updates. Or somewhat short.
For one *and this is a major turn of events here, Citizens!* it's that, well, I won't be able to attend Agathangelos' wedding after all. Due to this break-up mess *which might as well be my fault--looooong story for another time* Siren's basically not one for wanting to deal with me and the anxiety of it all in two weeks' time. And what really sucks is that I went through the trouble of getting time off of work to attend this and then recover enough to get ready to go back to work. Except, now I've got no wedding to go to.
Of course, What. the. effin'. ish?
That's fine though--that just means four days with almost nothing much to do. Except, to do what-all I can do. And that's to take time for the most important person in my life right now [second to God of course]--me. Which by sure means I'll be sure to go out to a cemetery somewhere in the area, hopefully one I haven't been to yet. Another thing I can do is to simply go out and just have fun.
Or, I can work on both [Metropolis] AND [Computer<3].
So I have four days of proper freedom [by the way they're Saturday 12 through Tuesday 15 July], and if anyone's around and wants to hang out, LET. ME. KNOW.
Also, my last day of my self-holiday [15 July] is Ian Curtis Day. I'll get more to that in the next handful of days leading to it.
Second update is, well, I'm going to an 80's Ladies Night. And I don't usually go out to those kinds of things. Usually I tend to hide out here in the Underground. Except, with the latest messy update *and proof that I will get over this--news flash to you, Siren* I really could use a proper distraction. Hell, I might even meet some new friends, and maybe--just MAYBE--I might run into that cutie from Saturday night's Madonna costume party.
So there y'all have it. The latest of the matter, and the latest in my musical whim.
Until the next round...
~ me
1] Kraftwerk
2] New Order
3] The Smiths
4] Depeche Mode
5] Clay Aiken
And with that, on with the Starian Union Radio Top 20!
1] "Lover All Alone" - Clay Aiken
2] "The Perfect Kiss" [full 12" version] - New Order
3] "Blasphemous Rumours" - Depeche Mode
4] "Getting Away With It" - Electronic
5] "Life's What You Make It" - Talk Talk
6] "Primitive Notion" - New Order
7] "Just Can't Get Enough" - Depeche Mode
8] "Hello It's Me" - Todd Rundgren
9] "Another Morning Stoner" - ...And You Will Know Us by the Trail of Dead
10] "Whip It" - Devo
11] "Cellphone's Dead" - Beck
12] "How Soon Is Now?" - The Smiths
13] "99 Red Balloons" - Nena
14] "Driver 8" - R.E.M.
15] "Oh L'Amour" - Erasure
16] "Pretty Girls Make Graves" - The Smiths
17] "NWA" - The Terrible Sea
18] "Heaven" - The Psychedelic Furs
19] "Angel Dust" - New Order
20] "Down the Line" - Jose Gonzalez
Alright, that done, the usual short updates. Or somewhat short.
For one *and this is a major turn of events here, Citizens!* it's that, well, I won't be able to attend Agathangelos' wedding after all. Due to this break-up mess *which might as well be my fault--looooong story for another time* Siren's basically not one for wanting to deal with me and the anxiety of it all in two weeks' time. And what really sucks is that I went through the trouble of getting time off of work to attend this and then recover enough to get ready to go back to work. Except, now I've got no wedding to go to.
Of course, What. the. effin'. ish?
That's fine though--that just means four days with almost nothing much to do. Except, to do what-all I can do. And that's to take time for the most important person in my life right now [second to God of course]--me. Which by sure means I'll be sure to go out to a cemetery somewhere in the area, hopefully one I haven't been to yet. Another thing I can do is to simply go out and just have fun.
Or, I can work on both [Metropolis] AND [Computer<3].
So I have four days of proper freedom [by the way they're Saturday 12 through Tuesday 15 July], and if anyone's around and wants to hang out, LET. ME. KNOW.
Also, my last day of my self-holiday [15 July] is Ian Curtis Day. I'll get more to that in the next handful of days leading to it.
Second update is, well, I'm going to an 80's Ladies Night. And I don't usually go out to those kinds of things. Usually I tend to hide out here in the Underground. Except, with the latest messy update *and proof that I will get over this--news flash to you, Siren* I really could use a proper distraction. Hell, I might even meet some new friends, and maybe--just MAYBE--I might run into that cutie from Saturday night's Madonna costume party.
So there y'all have it. The latest of the matter, and the latest in my musical whim.
Until the next round...
~ me
25 June 2008
Chapter 147 ~ *sigh* Alright, time out...
Okay, Citizens. I'm confused. Big time.
First of all, let's all skip down Memory Lane--from Monday 25 February, Chapter 98 ~ So much for my happy ending.
So this afternoon I get a text from Hikari [or as I can now call him my OTHER best-buddy ex-boyfriend], and he kindly reminds me that I'm a resilient girl, and to not let something small like the recent break-up get me down, and... well, I'll use his exact words for the last part of the text:
and you always have me =) <3
Okay--wait, hold up, and TIME THE FCUK OUT!! @.@-!? This is the same guy who broke up with me back in February simply 'cause he'd no time for this thing called us!? And now he's all like, "you always have me"!?
Er, yeah. :-\ Citizens, I'm confused. Somewhat.
I mean, I've always been the one facing the "right woman, wrong time"/"let's just stay friends" situation. So now I'm in this little mess [and mind y'all it's disaster number 3 in a slay-off of ten months], what else am I to do? I already swore to myself to never find time for this kind of mess again--in the end, when it's over, again and again, it's all a waste of emotions. True love exists only for those truly blessed by God to find that proper bliss, and in fairy tales--and I stopped believing in fairy tales years ago.
I'm scared of making that stupid, senseless mistake again. I mean, there's always that risk that I could finally stop the heartache but, I don't really see that happening. And as I said before, no matter how hard I try to work anything out in a relationship, in the end nothing works out.
*sigh* I wish I could just work things right with Siren, but we've started over again as friends. --hey, wait. What the fcuk...
Ever since I've had my proper rant about the relationship gone stale, and now that it's been over, HE'S ACTUALLY WANTED TO TALK!! And yet, it's not the same anymore. I can't really answer his IM's on AIM without fighting tears of anger, nor do I even understand now the why of it. Why now, when I'm still crying and hating myself for existing only to be Cupid's whipping girl, and to have to face getting over the heartache because, as always, things can't work out.
You know, I guess I will always have Hikari--but as a dear friend to me. He knows what-all has been going on, and understands where I'm coming from. And it sickens me a little to think that, I still love Siren as well. Except, like I said, it's not the same. And that's another thing I hate myself for--that I still harbor feelings that should've died a long time ago, and unfortunately that's how my heart is. It takes a helluva lot for me to hate somebody.
I could never hate Hikari because he's a good friend of mine. And I could never hate Siren because of the fact I'd liked him for so long, yet never gave him a chance. And yet I hate myself because I love them too much to hate them.
*sigh* I give up. I don't know what to do anymore...
~ me
First of all, let's all skip down Memory Lane--from Monday 25 February, Chapter 98 ~ So much for my happy ending.
So this afternoon I get a text from Hikari [or as I can now call him my OTHER best-buddy ex-boyfriend], and he kindly reminds me that I'm a resilient girl, and to not let something small like the recent break-up get me down, and... well, I'll use his exact words for the last part of the text:
and you always have me =) <3
Okay--wait, hold up, and TIME THE FCUK OUT!! @.@-!? This is the same guy who broke up with me back in February simply 'cause he'd no time for this thing called us!? And now he's all like, "you always have me"!?
Er, yeah. :-\ Citizens, I'm confused. Somewhat.
I mean, I've always been the one facing the "right woman, wrong time"/"let's just stay friends" situation. So now I'm in this little mess [and mind y'all it's disaster number 3 in a slay-off of ten months], what else am I to do? I already swore to myself to never find time for this kind of mess again--in the end, when it's over, again and again, it's all a waste of emotions. True love exists only for those truly blessed by God to find that proper bliss, and in fairy tales--and I stopped believing in fairy tales years ago.
I'm scared of making that stupid, senseless mistake again. I mean, there's always that risk that I could finally stop the heartache but, I don't really see that happening. And as I said before, no matter how hard I try to work anything out in a relationship, in the end nothing works out.
*sigh* I wish I could just work things right with Siren, but we've started over again as friends. --hey, wait. What the fcuk...
Ever since I've had my proper rant about the relationship gone stale, and now that it's been over, HE'S ACTUALLY WANTED TO TALK!! And yet, it's not the same anymore. I can't really answer his IM's on AIM without fighting tears of anger, nor do I even understand now the why of it. Why now, when I'm still crying and hating myself for existing only to be Cupid's whipping girl, and to have to face getting over the heartache because, as always, things can't work out.
You know, I guess I will always have Hikari--but as a dear friend to me. He knows what-all has been going on, and understands where I'm coming from. And it sickens me a little to think that, I still love Siren as well. Except, like I said, it's not the same. And that's another thing I hate myself for--that I still harbor feelings that should've died a long time ago, and unfortunately that's how my heart is. It takes a helluva lot for me to hate somebody.
I could never hate Hikari because he's a good friend of mine. And I could never hate Siren because of the fact I'd liked him for so long, yet never gave him a chance. And yet I hate myself because I love them too much to hate them.
*sigh* I give up. I don't know what to do anymore...
~ me
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