Chapter 157 ~ I'm Li'l Miss "Oh mah Gawd that Sunshine's SHAMELESS!" [And proud of, too!]

"Le WOW!! ...one word: GORGEOUS!!"
~ StarKnight Roboter

So, I'm sure everyone and the kitchen sink and its cousin too knows that, I didn't go to StarKnight Agathangelos' wedding this weekend. StarKnight Faith, however, saved the day and so, I proudly wore my blue get-up. Faith's mom took a picture of me, adorable as I was, and the only pain in the neck was that, the sun was damn blinding. I didn't care though--I think this was the best bout of revenge I could ever execute on a post-break-up.

And so, this is what the ex, Siren, missed out on this past Saturday [y'all ready?] ~


Oh and yes, I did send that pic to Roboter, which prompted his reaction, which I posted at the very start of this blogpost. *smirk*

So at the moment it's safe to say that, I've found some of the few and special friends that come to the rescue when I think all's gone lost. For example, I didn't think I'd ever get to wear the blue dress in public after when Siren told me he wasn't going to take me to the wedding. Of course, now this means I don't even know when I'll get to see my friend the Good Angel again [last I saw of him was two years ago before he left for Scotland to go to Graduate School]. And if I do get to see him again, that'll be what I can classify as a Godsend. Because Agathangelos truly deserves his codename.

And then StarKnight Faith saves the day, with her graduation, which gave me a whole new reason to wear the dress and, basically, declare an unashamed "UP YOURS!!" to the ex. So now if he *ever* wants to see me in a dress again, he's gonna have to find some sort of reason.

Except, one minor flaw...

How often do I dress up for any formal whim? And how often do I wear dresses? That all said, what are the odds that me being in a dress is gonna happen again?

Well, I do have my "fairy outfit" [the one I wore to Corky's husband's funeral last month], which I can wear whenever the situation fits. It's cute, it'll work for any occasion in my opinion. :-) But for a formal situation...

In the immortal words of Roboter: "Odds of that happening: ZERO."

So to Siren, if you're reading this, I don't mean to start drama. I do however mean to say that, you missed out. I simply upstaged your ass.

And that's enough for me to say, I'm shameless. And proud of!

Happy StarKnight Friendship Monday, everyone. Tomorrow's Ian Curtis Day '08, so y'all better get your Joy Division ready for the celebration--that and some early New Order. This one will be the closing day of the SKF Weekend, and I can't find a better day to celebrate the finale of the holiday than this.

On that note, until the next round, HEY KIT!! you up yet? We gotta go Cemetery huntin', kid!! Get your camera and LET'S GO ALREADY!!


[cheers, all. :-)]

~ me

Oh and P.S. ~ Why, oh why... does it seem that, if Siren can't do long-distance... then how come things seem so much bloody better between Roboter and I... and Roboter being all the way in New York...

Behold, the power of constant communication, and the miraculous wonder it can be.

Just some food for thought. No drama. Just want you Underground Citizens to think a little...

Chapter 112: That's It. It's Official. I'm Bringing Back the Starian Union.

...no seriously, I am.

There's a new roster for the Starian Union, returning favorites from the old days and assigning of new Teams. Pay attention--you might need a scorecard for this one. We've got a lot of Starians this time around!!

[starian union team or assistants]--
~ [starian] / [rank --if applicable] / [resident starian team or team of origin]

Core team: Team Angelos--
~ Setsuna / Princess, Captain of the entire Starian Union / Echoance
~ Sakura / Prime Minister of the Starian Union / ReStart
~ Hikaru [Hikari] / StarKnight Angelos [Guardian Angel StarKnight] /
~ Haruka / Guardian of new Starians / ReStart
~ Kyosuke / Resident Jedi Cowboy / Angelos
~ Irezumi / *new to team angelos, returning starian* / Entourage
~ Ryo'oki [Okonomiyaki] / Guardian of the Keys of Time** / Angelos

**replaces Shinnin, original Guardian, who is now deceased

Team TwinStar--
~ Megumi / Deaconess, future Bishop of the Union / Echoance
~ Arashii / Future Rabbi of the Union / Echoance
~ Ami-Mayumi / Future Organist of the Union / Echoance
~ Kotoko / Choir Librarian of the Cathedral / Echoance
~ Nakura [Nekoi] / Son of Sakura, from the future / TwinStar
~ Kagamiko / Guardian of Sakura and Nakura / Memorare
~ Tenshi'uta [Tenshi] / Choirmaster of the Cathedral / Echoance
~ Seiya / Guardian of the Royal Cemetary*** / Excelsios

***replaces Sorata, original Guardian, by special commission from Sorata

Team ReStart--
~ Minako / Captain of Team ReStart / *original Starian*
~ Mamoru / Minako's Second-in-Command / *original Starian*
~ Shinjiru [Shinji] / Guardian of the Royal Forest / *original Starian*
~ Phoenixia / Shinjiru's Guardian Phoenix / ReStart

Scion Union [Guardian StarKnights living abroad]--
~ Ki'oh / Scion Angelos / Excelsios *original StarKnight Angelos, gave powers to Hikaru*
~ Kaguya / Guardian of the Royal Library / Excelsios
~ Kaioh / Scion Druid / Excelsios
~ Sorata [Sora] / StarKnight Vampire *original Guardian of Royal Cemetary, commissioned Seiya as new guardian* / Entourage

Team Entourage--
~ Valgard / StarKnight Viking / Entourage
~ Kodama [Echo] / Resident Pilot / Entourage
~ Sian / Resident Cosplayer / Entourage
~ Kabuki / Resident Genderbender / Entourage

Assisting Starians--
~ Kakeru / Resident Punk / *original StarKnight*
~ Hotaru / *returning from deceased* / *original StarKnight*



...and there you have it! And that means I should get some new pics up...

~ "Sunshine"

Chapter 84: ...you know, it's got me a-thinking...

Today, oh dear. What a morning.

Got all my morning chores done before 6 A.M. And then, at 6 A.M., the chaos began. And, last I checked, when I clocked out at 1:18 P.M. earlier this afternoon, it was still busy. And by damn I wouldn't be surprised if it didn't slow down a bit.

The highlight of the morning:



...yup, y'all counted proper--$12 in quarters. And I had to freckin' count them all. That was not fun.

Adding to that, I hadn't seen Manager Joel at all except for when I was heading out for the day. Manager Lowanda was a bit on my last nerve, and the only Manager that's stayed on my good side--miraculously!!--was Manager Joshua!!

Speaking of Managers, Manager Larry's getting transfered to South DeLand. We're getting Carlina from South DeLand.

Now, allow me to ask the following question, uncensored:

What. The. Fuck!?

For one, I have absolutely nothing against Miss Carlina but, we just don't always see eye-to-eye on stuff. [Yes, I'd know. We've worked together before. She was there on my 22nd Birthday--my very first Closing Shift--among other odd incidents.] So, it's probably gonna be an odd round of dilemmas before I can adjust to working with her again.

Worst bit of the matter is Manager Lowanda will be holding the fort with the Crew Trainers. Which means that Karen, Kasha, Trev and I are at her mercy after Larry's transfer. And, to be honest with y'all, this is going to suck. I mean, hello!! Larry was probably the one Manager who really saw a lot of tough mettle in me when no one else really could or would have [except for Joel of course!!]. He managed to push my nerve to the limit by calling me in to work at night [2 weeks ago], having me clock in and help out--in my civilian clothes [about 3 weeks ago], and having me work in areas BESIDES the Back Drive-Thru. To be honest, I really owe Larry one helluva debt for making sure I colored outside the lines and jumped out of my comfort zone. When I get my brown shirt, I will truly be grateful for all that Manager Larry's put me through with my work experience. And, I guess, if it wasn't for him, I don't think I'd really get up the nerve to hold on to sanity during those 10-/11-hour workdays. I really wouldn't have hung on if it wasn't for Larry.

Meh, it's going to be a long couple of weeks.

In other news... well... I've been thinking...

...well, BEFORE we get to that...

...hee...



...yup, Ralf back in 1976. In glasses!!

Oh Lord, he is just a beautiful, beautiful man!! I <3 that Roboter!! *swoon*

...erm, ahem. Anywho.

I guess, well, I have been thinking that, maybe, just maybe there's someone out there for me. I just don't intend to keep my hopes up. I mean, I've been doing well since the break-up [thank God!!], and it's not like Mike and I aren't going to stay friends. We are going to stay friends. That's just... that's just how it all goes. I'm moving on at a considerable pace. And it's good that he's actually gone--he's in Scotland, and that means I won't have to worry too much about him AT ALL until January, when he returns.

Though, in the midst of all of this, there's that nerve inside of me that just... holds on to that last string.

I'm probably going to hate myself for saying this but, I still love him, even though it's over. But, it's not like it used to be. This love's died down a lot... mostly burnt to cinders and such.

I know, I know, I'm never going to be with him again. It's over, it's done, it's six feet under and all that. But still, I guess I'll always be a fool.

And perhaps that's one of the reasons [though now mostly insignificant really] as to why I have that slight hope of someone out there for me.

Just that, it hurts. It really hurts inside, that what's done is done and can't be changed, not ever nor even for all the world.

So... yeah... I guess that's my humble observation of the day really.

In closing, a brand effin' new poem:

"Proceed. With. Caution."

Spontaneous yet cautious,
slightly proud yet mostly humble,
royal-blooded yet simple-hearted,
meaning well yet misunderstood.

Holding on yet letting go,
losing hopes yet still dreaming,
lost in dreamland yet awake in the world,
knowing I'm no one yet knowing I'm someone.

Hating Cupid yet hoping in love somehow,
moving on yet standing still,
fearless to the world yet fearing the world,
and all the while... strange yet beautiful.

I guess this really is going to be a long couple of weeks...



...oh, and one final note of the moment:

This would be StarKnight Antenna...

...as a Mensch-Maschine!!

*clicky thumbnail!!*

Now come on, Excelsians--ain't he just ADORABLE or what!?

Until the next round... *or until i finally stop oogling antenna!!*

~ 'Sunshine'