Yes, I am calling this one out for last night. If there is one thing that EVERYBODY must know about me, it's the following--
I can't stand blind dates. Period.
[Currently listening to|"Peppermint Pig" (12" version) - The Cocteau Twins.]
So right now, things are a bit, erm... unsettled within me as of last night. I mean, well, okay. The guy, he's older than me. [Okay, I suppose I can handle that, right?] And he thinks I'm pretty cool. [Eh, fine and dandy I guess. Right?] But then the conversation kinda turned to a matter that will NOT be brougth up here. [Uh oh. Things just got a bit, erk, not-so-lovely...]
And then, well, he kissed me good night.
[Two words: RED FLAG.]
So, that said... WHAT THE F@#K WAS I THINKING!? I mean, this guy and I, we kinda "clicked" but we didn't "click", y'know? We got along well as friends but on my end, there just wasn't any romantic spark, period. And when the conversation went on the uncalled-for, I got a bit alarmed within... the kind of 'alarmed' that makes one go, "Aw f@#k" in disgust.
Yeah, it didn't help when he kissed me good night. Just, no.
I mean, yeah. You know what, I'm damn awesome like that. On the other hand, I'm not up for gettin' in anybody's pants anytime soon. He wants to take me out this Saturday night--and I, stupid ID10T that I am to be so damn nice, said yes to it. Though, we're heading to daVinci's this Saturday night. Hopefully he can be kept at bay to the point where he WON'T try to kiss me. Because, I'll be honest--he caught me off guard. It's bad enough he is *way* too into me already, much too soon.
Wishing things just weren't this f@#ked up right now...
~ me
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